The Reason (Completed)

Letter 17

Ugh. 

Bakit kasi kailangan niya pang umamin? Pwede namang itago niya na lang. He would do the both of us a favor. But instead, he freakin' confessed! 

Lumabas na ko ng bar ng nagmamadali tapos ay inisip ko kung pano ako makakauwi, kasabay ko kasi lagi sila Clarice, and now what? Pano ako uuwi? Maglalakad? 

My thought were interuptted by someone, and by someone, I think you know who. 

"Freah, uuwi ka na?" Kuya CA asked. Para ngang nagaalinlangan pa siya eh. Given the fact that he was 'Kuya-Zoned' by me. Okay stop. I am so evil. 

"That's the plan pero hindi ko alam kung pano." I smiled at him. To assure him that everything's fine between us. 

"Want me to take you home?" He asked. 

"How 'bout Clarice and the gang?" Well, okay lang naman kasi may dalang kotse naman si Stefan and kasya naman sila dun. Pero alam niyo na, just to be sure. And alam niyo namang over-protective yang si Kuya CA sa kapatid niya. 

He shrugged and said, "Stefan can do it. And may gusto akong sabihin sa'yo." kahit kinakabahan ako sa gusto niyang sabihin, sumunod na lang ako sa kotse niya. 

"What time is it?" Tanong ko sakanya pagpasok ko sa kotse niya. And you know CA, pinagbuksan niya ko. Being the gentleman he is. And it's true. 

Kuya CA is the gentleman in our group and yung pinakamatino. He's even wearing glasses! So being the stereo type I am, matino siya and matataas grades na nakukuha and plus na lang yung looks niya. He's not the kind of guy who's sobrang puti. Siya yung tipong lalakeng lalake talaga. 

I would drool over him kaso, wala nga akong nararamdaman para sakanya.

Stefan... Stefan is the playboy. And you guys know how playboy works right? No need to explain. 

JB, well JB is JB. You know what? I think JB's gay. Seriously. There's this time na kaming dalawa lang and hinihintay namin yung iba sa bar amd may lumalapit sakanyang sexyng babae but he decline! But that's not the point, he was staring at a guy! Ohgad. 

"Freah?" binaling ko yung tingin ko kay Kuya CA na busy sa pagmamaneho. Sumilip ako sa bintana at ang ganda talaga pag gabi. Ewan ko ba, mas trip kong mag gala pag gabi. Ang ganda kasi. 

"Yeah?" 

In-on ko yung radio niya at biglang tumugtog yung kanta ng isang boy band? Ewan ko. Basta lalake yung kumakanta. 

"Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you."

"Freah, gusto talaga kita. Please... Give me a chance?" tinigil niya yung sasakyan dahil nasa harap kami ng traffic light at pula yung ilaw. 

"Ku--" he stopped me even before I could say something. 

"Freah," napabuntong hininga siya tapos ay tinuloy niya na yung pagmamaneho niya. 

"I'm serious about you. I like you. I want to court you... Please? Just a chance?" binaling niya yung tingin niya sakin pero patuloy lang siya sa pagmamaneho kaya sinigawan ko siya na tumingin lang sa harap, which he did because I'm pissed off. Is he trying to kill us?! 

"I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now."

"Kuya CA...," i started, but he glared at me. I scoffed and, "Fine. CA. Just keep your eyes infront! Bastard." he chuckled. 

"You see, kahit sabihin mo saking gusto mo ko, I can't reciprocate the feelings. It's not that I'm not ready, okay, hindi pa talaga ako ready. It... It's just that, masyado akong nasaktan sa past relationship ko, kaya tingin ko hindi ko na kayang magtiwala sa mga lalake." I said sincerely at him. 

"Sorry guys!" I opened his window and swayed my hands like an idiot. 

"I'm sure you've heard it all before but you never really had a doubt ."

"I'm sure the guy's an asshole for hurting you." he frowned but I let out a giggle. Sure. Austin is an asshole for hurting me. 

"Tsaka, nagsisisi akong di ako nagpakilala sa'yo dati pa." I stared at him. He is smiling while taking the right turn. 

"There are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how."

"I've known you since last last year, hindi ako stalker ah! Syempre makikita kita paminsan-minsan kasi sa isang subdivision lang naman tayo and everytime I'd see you, there's something in your eyes, I saw sadness and I don't know why but I fell inlove with your eyes. It's like, I want to erase the sadness in your eyes and I would do everything to make you happy." He smiled then he looked at me. Tapos ay binaling niya ulit yung tingin niya sa daan. 

"Then last two weeks, talk about fate. Yes, I think fate brought us together. Corny man pakinggan, yun talaga nararamdaman ko. Maybe God let us bump into each other for some reasons. And I think, the reason is for me to make you happy." 

I smiled. 

"Because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me."

"I really want to be the mature one to understand your situation pero sorry, gusto ko talagang itulak sarili ko sa'yo eh. I like you to that extent. It's fine with me, Freah..." 

"And after all you're my wonderwall." 

"Use me to forget everything... Gamitin mo 'ko. Ayos lang sakin."