Cyber Love

Happy Birthday!

"Why are you sighing? And I'm not letting you go so easily. Answer me. Now!" she ordered, breaking me out of my thoughts.

How could I tell her? I mean, ofcourse I couldn't tell. It's already hard to accept it myself ! I know, I know I'm such a bitch. Who lies to their best friend? Anyway, she has to find out someday right? But not today, I couldn't go through all that drama. You know how Anne is... she exaggerates every thing. Like she would spare this, it would probably be spread around the whole school in less than a second. She would bug the crap out of me if she came to know that I was best friends with the teenage heart-throb, Justin Bieber. I mean, ex-bestfriends...or was it?

Ughhhh! It's very confusing.

"Umm.. I'm just PMSing" I lied. I'm a smooth liar, remember?

"Hmmm...."she trailed giving me a suspicious look."But why are your eyes so red and squinty?"

"I was reading a really cute book and I just couldn't stop.You should try it!" I lied, again.

"Name?" she inquired, taking her books out for chemistry.

"Uhhhh.........." SHIT.SHIT.SHIT!

"W...Where Rainbows End!" I squealed getting stares from a few people. I sighed in relief, 'That was close' I thought.

"Ohh... Bu-"The bell rang cutting her off.

"Bye Anne, TTYL" I waved at her, quickly rushing to my class, leaving her stare at me open-mouthed.

Finally after what seemed like forever, the last bell rang, announcing my freedom. I walked towards my car and quickly got inside. Turning on the radio..... I got lost into my thoughts and in no time my eyes met upon the familiar front door.

On getting inside, I realised I was home-alone and rushed my way up the stairs, laying myself on the bed... thinking, yet, once again.

I knew it would be hard, but I had to tell him right? I couldn't keep running from the truth forever.... It might be the easy path, but it was wrong and Justin didn't deserve to be treated this way. He still thought of me as his best friend, he still wore the anklet I gave him after all these years. What does it all mean? That he cares for me. JUSTIN FRIGGIN' BIEBER cares for ME! And what did I do to return his favour? Lied to him! Wasn't fair, was it? I know what he did was wrong, but he didn't do it intentionally. I still don't get it though, why didn't he trust me?

Why did he think I would say no to him? I thought he knew me...

Yes, he hurt me but I did too right? And if it just goes on like this forever, before we know it, it'll be too late.

I have to do it. I have to tell him.

Come on Rachael! You can do this.

I took a deep breath and switched on my laptop, logging into my MSN.

I prayed for him to be online cause I had to tell him. It was either now or never.

To my luck he was and just as I was about to inbox him he inboxed me.

BeingMyself- Hey Ray! I need to tell you something...

What did he wanna tell me? Did he come to know too.

Shit. This is BAD. Really bad.

I mean what would Justin Bieber want to tell ME. It was definitely what I was going to tell him.

Right?

Sun'sRay- Hey! I need to tell you something too... But off course you go first.

BeingMyself- Would you meet me in Time Square's Mcdonald's at 6 pm today? Just you and me. It's weird that we haven't ever met even though we know everything about each other.

At least he doesn't know yet! But why did he want to meet me? And how could he just walk around like a normal person when he was freakin' Justin Bieber?!!! Did he trust me enough to tell me his true identity? Was he disguising himself? And of all days.. Why today? Something.. Something..is definitely today. Think Ray think. What's the date again? March 1st... it seems so familiar for some reason.......................

OMYGOSH! It was his birthday... No wonder

What kind of best friend am I?

How could I forget my Justin's birthday?

Sun'sRay- But why today? Anything special? Birthday?

Obviously I knew it was his birthday but I couldn't let him know that, could I? Like he wasn't suspicious enough..

BeingMyself- Yeah it's my birthday.. How did you know?

Sun'sRay- Someone I knew had his birthday today too...

BeingMyself- That's so cool! So will you come?

Call me the Queen Bitch of bitches, I deserved it. How could anyone be as mean as me? Because what I am going to do is the meanest thing anyone would do ,that too on a birthday.

I know I was supposed to confess and stuff, but I can't, not today, it's his birthday, I don't want to ruin it.... Like I'm not going to ruin it enough...

I couldn't face him again, at least not now.... I wasn't ready to. Justin's always been so sensitive... he would get hurt so badly. I'm such a bitchster! For some reason my heart twisted in my chest as I took a deep breath getting ready to do what was right.

Sun'sRay- Happy Birthday! I'm sorry but I can't go.....

I'm pretty sure he hates me by now. C'mon who wouldn't? But I knew I was hurting as much as him on the inside......

BeingMyself- it's fine. I completely understand. But I feel weird talking to you today.. It's like I have to think before I type. And that never happened before... Your not being so free as you usually do. What's happening Ray? Should I be concerned? Something you want to tell me?

SHIT. I guess I should have been prepared for this sort of thing.. Best friends have the ability to read through you. Now what do I do?

What do I reply?

Should I say something?

Should I say nothing?

I can't tell him about all that stuff now... things would just get more complicated. And I think it's better if I distance myself from him for a while......, I need time. I'm not ready yet.

The question is, will I EVER be ready?

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