We are all becoming numb to certain situations. We have to or we go into a crazed panic of never ending spirals of pain and maniac looking thoughts. We are not going to be ok with everything. The only things we are OK with are eating, sleeping, drinking and other monotone tasks. Some are even not OK with those with eating disorders, insomnia, and alcoholic addictions. Everything else we have to get numb to. Getting over a fear? you are just becoming numb to that fear. Heck, as babies we had to get numb to standing up and having a chance of falling over. Everything is now numb.
I have been going through situations that have not gone numb yet. I have to let go and give up on a friend because she refuses help and i am not numb to that. I have always put everybody ahead of me and to have to put myself above her is heart wrenching. Having to get over heartbreak is not something anyone gets numb to and o have to get numb to this and learn to Trust again. I HAVE TO GET NUMB TO TRUST! I don't trust anyone anymore because of a situation. I have to get numb to the pain my parents are putting me through. I have to get numb to seeing my best friend in such distress. I want to help but getting numb and hiding the fact that i am getting numb is all i can do. I am now realizing that life is just getting numb to everything. People say to live a happy life you just have to live happy. No, you have to live numb.
All the little things that make us happy are just a brake from being numb. Sipping hot coffee with the perfect creamer is just a break. Laughing with friends without drama is just a break. The little glimpse of light through the darkness is just a break. A break from reality. A break from life. A break from the truth. A break from existence. A break from numb.
All these things are hard. Harder for others but still everybody has these hard feelings. Everybody, everything is numb.
