I just want to disappear, only for see if it makes a difference to people, to be there on earth or not.
Just for few days, because I can't kill myself, i'm not brave enough and I'm not a coward for sure but i don't want to, maybe sometimes i think about that, if it's the only way to be happier and not to be sad anymore. I don't exactly know how i feel.
It's complicated.
I realized that I was becoming a little depressed, there is so little time.
I just have the feeling to be sad all the time, and the worse is that i don't even know why, i have few ideas but i don't think it's enough. I just have the feeling to want to cry every day, every night, in my bed.
I feel like i reach the paroxysm of happiness, and now it disappears for ever.
