Will you still love me even if I'm a man?

Chapter 88: Blinded Eyes

Original author: Angelina

Translator: Angela

[not sure if this is needed, but I'm putting a warning here for blood and self-harm just in case there are readers who are sensitive about these topics (it's nothing really serious though)]

"Idiot, bastard, I can't believe he yelled at me." As he ran, Mai Ding wiped away his tears with his sleeve. An Ziyan had never yelled at him so fiercely or harshly before. He ran and ran, running until he had no more strength left in his body. Mai Ding sat down on by the river bank. His mind and his heart were full of An Ziyan's face and words.

Why did things turn out like this? Everything was supposed to be fine after their family situations were solved.

But there were problems between the two of them as well.

Lu Wei had followed Mai Ding all the way from his school. He stood in front of Mai Ding, took out a tissue, and handed it over: "Are you okay? How come you're crying?" Lu Wei said with an angelic smile on his face.

Mai Ding saw Lu Wei and accepted the tissue: "How come I bump into you everywhere?"

"God probably arranged it for us to meet. Why, what's wrong?"

"It's nothing."

"You'll feel better if you say what's on your mind and vent a little."

When he heard this, a lump formed in Mai Ding's throat again: "Who else could it be? He's so ridiculous! He told me that you like me, he was angry at me, and then he yelled at me! We've only known each other for two days so how could you possibly like me?" He said angrily. If An Ziyan heard these words, they would probably have another huge fight.

Lu Wei pretended to look upset: "Looks like it was my fault that you guys are quarreling. Maybe it's best if I don't bother you anymore." Lu Wei was about to leave when Mai Ding grabbed his hand: "Why do you have to leave? He already yelled at me. Why can't I make a single friend when he's surrounded by women all day long?"

"But this is bad, isn't it?"

"There's nothing bad about it. This time, it's all his fault. I'm not going to give in."

An Ziyan, who had driven his car out from the school's parking lot, parked his car nearby and watched Mai Ding, Lu Wei, and their intertwining hands. Without saying a word, he drove away. What could be more hurtful than seeing you together with another man?

Lu Wei continued to add fuel to the fire: "How could he scold you? Didn't you say that he treats you really well?"

"Since he said all those things about me, I never walk to talk to that horrible person ever again."

"Can you really do it?" Lu Wei asked.

When he was asked this, Mai Ding was stunned for a few seconds and then finally sagged his shoulders and shook his head: "There's no way I can. Even if he hits me, there's no way I can control the impulses in my heart and body that want to be close to him."

"Is it a good thing for love to go so far? He doesn't even trust you anymore. And it won't just be me; in the future, you won't be able to make friends anymore. How many more times will you two argue due to situations like this? If there isn't even a basic level of trust, then isn't love just a word on a piece of paper?"

People are strange. When other people said bad things about An Ziyan, Mai Ding's mind was full of An Ziyan's good points: "Even though he always calls me an idiot and a fool, there are also times when he calls me his baby. I don't care if it's just words on paper, I don't care if there's trust, I only want An Ziyan. I don't care about anything else."