Malec: The choice

Part 2

Weeks drifted by while Alec ignored Magnus ;too embarrassed to face his love so he hid his emotions (clearly not very well). Alec took his anger out on everyone, Izzy would ask how he was and he would kick off . He'd changed, anyone could see that. Izzy was the first to notice , his eyes were dark and sorrowful always on the verge of tears his face no longer beaming with a smile but just no emotion like death. No more did girls long for his attention but avoid him and his new hateful vibe.
It was killing Magnus inside , he knew that wasn't Alec but he couldn't help but despise what he'd become . Magnus couldn't stay and watch Alec beat himself up like that. He had to get out.

Ever since Alec's mum found out he was gay she had tried everything to get him out of what she called a 'phase' only one thing seemed to work... she taught him restraint; every time he thought about Magnus about loving him he had to cut himself. Fountains of red would pour from his veins, soon all he associated with love was pain. How could such a beautiful mind be so lost?

It was the weekend before they would break up for summer and Alec heard a knock at the door. "I'll get it mum," he called up the stairs . As he opened the door his eyes started to ajust to what he was looking at- no one other than Magnus . His big brown eyes glistened in the sunlight, Alec couldn't help but find him captivating. His patterned shirt sat just right on his toned body. How could someone be so perfect? "You can't be here." Alec grumbled sternly, trying to push those thoughts aside. No response.
"Alec, I'm leaving," Magnus said abruptly to exhinguish the awkward silence.
"What!" Alec whispered shocked.
"I thought I should say goodbye," Magnus eyes were now clouded with tears . Alec's whole body shook that was not what he wanted, but his family. "Why are you telling me this? I don't care." Alec said trying to cover up his pain.
"So thats it, you've given up, you really don't feel anything and more. So what, i guess you're straight now?"
"Stop, your confusing me," Alec cried. Maybe it was the hot weather but in the heat of the moment Magnus leaned in and kissed Alec. Passion and anger surged throught their bodies. What lasted seconds felt like a lifetime to those boys. Magnus pulled away gasping for air. Before he could speak Alec pulled him back for more. He couldn't fight the urge;he didn't want to.
"I don't want you to leave!" cried Alec as he rested his head on Magnus'
"Then come with me" Magnus replied lovingly
Alec lifted his head and gazed at Magnus, tears pricking his lashed "My family would disown me,"
"Screw them alexander can't you see!" Magnus grabbed alecs wrist and yanked his sleeve up exposing his scars . His skin red and puffy as if calling for help. "They're torturing you, for simply being you,"
"Don't make this harder than it already is," Alec whaled.
"You need to make a choice."

Alec replied with only two words. His face cold and emotionless as he took a breath and whispered "I can't."