Diary of 1043 Days torn from you

Why Diary?

Dear Diary,

People say pain is just a state of mind, but is it really?

Why is there so much pain? Why did they do this to me?

I don't know what to do, I only have myself and my unborn child. If only I told Blake of this sooner, why was I so afraid?

It's not my fault, I didn't want to tell him yet, we're only 19! Would he really want me pregnant so early? There were so many faults.

What of my family? I have a perfect, kind, loving mom and dad, and 3 brothers. They have responsibility, what will me going missing do to them? 

I had everything, now I have barely anything, nothing but myself and an unborn child. How long will he wait for me? We're not even married. 

He will not wait for me, he has responsibility, he needs to marry, and I am not there, his mate is not there, I am his mate and I am not there. What kind of a mate am I?
I have lost a fight, I have given in.

What kind of Luna does that make me? 

We are alone, no money, shelter, friends, family, nothing, nothing but my baby, wolf and my-self.

It is not good to be in wolf form when pregnant though. Rogues are out there, they hunt down female werewolves, they hunt down pregnant one's especially, young are up on the charts too.

I am rogue now, I am alone, and I am a sitting duck. I must watch both my child and I. There is no other choice. I cannot contact my mate, or anyone from my old life. They will pay otherwise.

What kind of Luna am I?

It does not matter, I am no Luna at all, I am false Luna, I have no future. I am dead.

Why Diary? Why did this happen? Why was I left like this? I am in wolf form, I have nothing besides myself. 

Why Diary?

They say you don't feel anything, they say it's painless, you don't realize anything for awhile, your numb, but I'm not numb, I feel???