glowing eyes / poetry - ✔

viii. as a dead leaf

{note. looking for a better title. tell me if u can think of one}

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my love for you -

mostly found lying dead
among the fallen autumn leaves
breathing in the scent of gravity

like a rose blooming in winter
a fixed phenomenon it is
it always will come back from the dead

i have spent ages studying it,
perfecting it for your use
your lack of vision used to displease me

distractions have come and gone
but those are mere peasants
while it reigns like kings

it is not permanent
not temporary, either
it appears when one chooses to see it

it is exemplary,
so do not doubt its existence
for no one would emulate something that has never been

doubting its authenticity
is like sending a cut right at my heart
reciprocation is not my goal anymore

i have known you for lifetimes, it seems and i know
i am not astonishing enough
to receive your gaze

do not love me
acknowledge me just as a dead leaf
of crunched fear and lingering smell

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please share your thoughts!! this one is so ugh idk i dont like it a lot.
thank you so much for reading.❤
ps. i don't feel well??? i don't feel like updating and i am not really happy with the things I've written/am writing.
well. life is shit.