My Story Life Till Now

This Is My Story

My name's Thianna here I am 5 years old learning about death as my half bro lays on my grandma's bed sleeping or so I thought I asked my grandma" why won't he wake up?" she just walks away from me taking me to the kitchen where the yummy cornbread was " sugar he's ..... He's not going to he's here now(points to my heart) he's a Angel now." parents split when I was 7 then the true horror started when I hit 9-10 years of age I would be dropped off at my aunt and uncles I cry to my mom to send me to my Pappas no to busy I hear over and over crying my tears burning my eyes as every time my uncle watched me I was molested over and over again I begged him to stop when his nasty voice says back " what don't you love me anymore?" I just ball finally by age 11 I feared nothing was going to be done so I spoke to my great-aunt she snapped at my mom making her hear every detail she said for 1st time he got arrested.

By age 15 I'm sleeping with 19 year old losing my innocent side fully married by 16 kid by 19 divorced by 21 and sadly by 22 almost 23 I'm wishing to die to end my pain I was diagnosed with ptsd (post traumatic stress disorder) bipolar manic depression and bpd( borderline personality disorder)
And split personality all because of when I was a child myself so scared weak and innocent my ex husband was controlling but his control lasted 5 years almost till I stood up showing him I wasn't going to be his doormat anymore he would control me with fear when it stopped working to keep from hitting me he divorced me for someone older and weaker mentally. Now I'm 24 married and a soldier wife treated like a fragile queen and fully diagnosed with ptsd bipolor manic depression stage 2 and multiple personalities dissociative identity disorder. I hate being scared, but fear makes us who we are right?

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That sums my life up so ya rough but made me smarter than I know