Marry Me, Mary

Kabanata XXI: Realization

A.N: If there were typos, my apologies. Tinamad na 'kong mag-edit. Hahaha!

Sa banta niyang 'yon ay hindi agad ako nakagalaw. Hindi ako makakurap. Parang napako na ang paa ko sa kinatatayuan ko. Ilang segundo pa ang lumipas bago niya tuluyang ialis ang tingin sa'kin at yumauko.

I can't help but to be worried...about her. I know na gusto niyang bingwitin si Zac sa'kin. Alam kong bitch siya and all - but I know a problem when I see it, and I know a miserable woman when I see it. Like Honey.

"Can I just be you? Can he sometimes pretend that I'm you? Can he not understand that I need him?" puno ng pakiusap niyang sambit, nagmamakaawa, kulang na lang ay manikluhod siya sa'kin para sa atensyon na hindi kayang ibigay sa kanya ni Zac. Atensyon na kapantay ng sa akin.

"Honey, I'm...I'm so sorry," I whispered.

Now, now, now. Why am I saying sorry to her? Ugh, I can't help but empathize. I can only imagine how it feels like to be in that situation – unrequited love.

"I love him. Can you just...give him to me?" dagdag pa niya, ngayon ay tahimik ng tumutulo ang kanyang luha. "I can kill for him," bulong niya na sinabayan pa ng ngiti. "Can you do that, Mary?" napahakbang ako paatras sa iwinika niyang 'yon. This girl is crazy. "No. Of course, you can't. Because you don't love him that much," and she laughs that only the both of us can hear.

"No, Honey," kontra ko. "I can kill for him," determinado kong sambit.

"I am not talking figurative shits, Mary," muli na namang bumalik ang malamig niyang tinig. "Can you can kill for him...literally?" sinarado ko ang aking mga palad na para bang handa ng manuntok. Pero ang totoo...natatakot ako.

"What are you talking about," pigil-hininga kong tanong ngunit parang hindi niya ko narinig dahil sa sunod niyang sinabi...

"Because I can kill you, Mary...without hesitation."

"You're crazy..." tangi kong nasabi na ikinatawa niya.

"Oh, I am! Zac can even attest to that," napailing na ko sa sinabi niya. What is she talking about? "So, are you still staying here or –"

"Did you just threaten to kill me?" I know that it is the dumbest question pero ngayon lang nagsi-sink in sa'kin ang lahat. 'Yong araw na nasa store kami ni Baya para pumili ng damit na masusuot namin sa engagement party nilang dalawa.

"...is Kellan your child? Or she's a psycho you need to watch over?" bigla siyang namutla at hindi agad nakapagsalita nang binanggit ko 'yon. Malamang na nagbibiro lang ako ng sinabi ko ang hinala 'kong 'yon. I can't just imagine Honey to be a psycho. She's may be a bitch but it didn't occur to me that...

"Kellan's not my child. Honey's not a psycho – I mean, she has some issues." Issues. That what was Zac told me. Issues that he got no plans to discuss with me.

"I never betray you. It wasn't my intention to hurt you. I did it to protect you." That's what he told me when we're watching Movie last night.

I hate what my mind's thinking right now. What if...what if...what if this is the issue Zac's referring to? What if...what if Honey is indeed crazy? Crazy to the extent that she can be able to hurt someone? Not only me...but her child as well? Is that the reason why he utters those words to Kellan earlier? "Don't worry, it's alright now. I'm here,"

Realization finally hits me: Yzaack Kevin is protecting us from Honey.

Kaya pala...kaya pala kung gano'n na lang niya 'ko ipagtabuyan noon. Nanlabo na ang mata ko dahil sa luha. Damn, that man really loves me he even sacrifices himself to protect me.