As this music blasts in my ears, I start to think of how I even got here, to this point of depression, this point of no going back, this point of nothing. The things that always haunt me are the things that I create, these problems, these rumors, these demons. It's a shame no one notices what I'm going through, I guess I do a pretty good job hiding it, but as it's hiding, it always wants to get out, it is fear, sadness, loneliness, all in one, but I can control it. The more I hide it though, the worse it gets, it will probably never get better, especially if I can't get over, these demons. However, these demons are the one thing that I can never control, they just come and go. They are the one thing I fear most, the one thing I can never rid of, the one thing that makes my life so hard, the one thing these demons are....the one. I thought I had found "the one", why did she have to go, she just, left, like when a tree let's it's leafs fall off, I'm the leaf, she's the tree, I have nothing now, I fell off, can't get back on, she still has everything, and she is still my everything, but I can never go back because she won't let me. Leaf, tree, these demons, how life hates me so, when will it end. The answer will probably never be answered, it will probably never end, it may end some day, who knows, only time will tell. These demons, how they help, yet hurt, no one will ever understand, they can't, I'm too complicated, I'm too ugly, too stupid, idiotic, too slow, if only some one could help me, not therapy, not a mental institute, but someone I can love and care about. Someone like, "the one", too bad I've lost her, never to return to that tree, she doesn't want me back, the rotting leaf, no food or water to help it live, that's how I feel, like I'm dying, I'm dying without her, I need her, but she deserves better. She probably left me because I'm so suicidal, or maybe because just depression, who knows, maybe because I'm such a screw up, only she will know, but now I'm just a leaf, a leaf floating in the wind, nothing to keep it alive, it's dying without its tree, I'm dying without her, without her, I'm nothing, I'm just a leaf that's never going to get a second chance, and as I think about her, I drift further and further away, away from happiness, away from staying sane, away from everything I've ever wanted, away from her, the tree, that beautiful tree, this heart broken leaf. The feelings lost, the thoughts gained, the things that are gone, the things that have been gained, these things that I can never get over, these demons. The tree, the leaf, never to be joined again, never to know what happened, the leaf will never know how to fix his mistakes, how to fix himself, how to come back to the tree, he will never know, he will only keep drifting, further and further away from her, that beautiful tree, and all he can think about is these, these demons. When will it end?
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These demons
Non-FictionA teen named James Lilo is going through a tough time in his relationship with his girl friend Lola Harold. His relationship is falling apart fast and he has no idea what to do then to write it down to try and cope with the pain. He is not alone tho...
