Behind Closed Doors

Dark Paradise

We all know life can be a pain in the ass, because all the bullshit never ends. And if you can't relate I guess this is your warning. Everything has you all choked up inside, and sooner or later you just explode. The name is Heaven by the way, I always thought my name would give me an easy life, but no name dose. You probably think my life is like every teenage life, or I'm just a fabler, but I promise you I'm not. 

     I've always been asked "what's your purpose in life?" I never knew how to answer that, I've always thought something is suppose to catch a persons' eye, and Abracadabra!  But it's like in life you never stop working if really think about it. Many people would probably think I'm popular, but I'm not I'm just a well known person. As my personality is, loud mouth, sensitive but tough, and I work for what I want, at least most of the time. 

   Don't get me wrong I love life, to a certain extent as lest. But I'm just a girl in seek of an endless adventure. My whole life I've never really had a great adventure, its been pretty much a flat line. I'm a freshman in high school, and when I entered those doors, my life actually began. I've always been a rebel, or a "savage" as you guys call it. All my teachers hated me, and this still do. And honestly I couldn't sleep any better at night.

    I've always had three real friends by my side, and that's all I really needed. Their were the type of people who I can open up, and express my feelings when I needed too. Also their were the type of people who gave me advice when I need too.  Harper was the complete opposite of me, her opinions were true sometimes , and most of the time were totally uncalled for. I've known her since the 5th grade, and we have a love- hate friendship. 

   Abigail was basically my twin, she's the won who gave me an adventure and who opened me up to have a little more fun in life. And honestly I couldn't be happier to have her as a friend. Johnathan is probably the most realest gay person I've ever met, he's always been straight forward with me, and always knew their was something wrong with me. And I think of him as a brother.

   High school is full of mean people including yourself. I'm not going to lie but I'm a mean person, because everyday I walk into school with my guards up. But, their may be sometimes were I let them down a wild out, but when I'm done it goes back up. And this includes home as well. As you probably don't know I'm the only child, which sucks major ass. Most of you guys are probably thinking "Your such a lucky son of a bitch", and which I'm not because most of the time when I'm at home I listen to music or talk to my dog, and her name's Maxine by the way.

   As an only child, you sometimes get what you want, and when there's dishes in the sink it's all up to you. My mother and I have a kind of stable bond, but most of the time it's unstable. I usually don't like opening up to her, because most of the times the opinions I receive turn into arguments. But anyways it's a quiet house just the sound of the dogs' collar, and the T.V.