I CANT GET THE CAP OFF • tracob au

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(Jacob POV)

Troye walked into our bedroom looking gloomy, as I was about to ask how his day went he said, "babe we need to talk." I wasn't sure what those words meant coming out of his mouth, he's always a surprise but something in my gut was telling me this couldn't be any good.

"Um, yeah sure. What about?" I asked trying my best not to seem like a little bitch

"I don't think.. I just, I don't thin-"

"Troye what is just spit it out"

"I don't think we should be together anymore!!!" As he said the words I couldn't comprehend. I thought we were going fine. I mean yeah he had been struggling a lot with himself lately but how could that have anything to do with me??? I was suddenly filled with anger but I wouldn't show it to him. I just want to know why without causing a huge mess like always.

"Wh-why? What happened between us?"

"I don't know something just feels so off and I don't know how to explain it but I haven't been doing well and I know that it doesn't seem like it should be your fault and I'm not saying it is but all you ever want to do when something bad happens is fuck and manipulate me. I loved it at first but you have this Daddy kink and it's not helping my self-esteem when you try and make me seem lesser. I thought it would just be fun but you take it too far sometimes." Here we go again. I don't even know whether to fight this or not, it's always the problem!! I roll my eyes and walk out of the room. As expected he followed me, "I'm just saying it doesn't all have to be rough in the relationship I want to be soft with you without making it seem like im trying to engage in your sexual kink. It's not all about sex. I love you. I love you so damn much I can't continue if you don't express your love for me or just look at me as a sex toy."

"Okay hold on, you are NOT a sex toy, and I love you so much. But you know how I feel about saying those words."

"I don't know anymore." I didn't even know what to say, there was just silence. "This doesn't have to be permanent, I just need a break to focus on myself and get back on track. Can you please just agree I feel awful doing this but my therapist said I should focus on no one but myself after I told her how things were."

"You went to a therapist?"

"I didn't know what else to do okay? Whenever I cut all you say is that I promised you not to anymore and it makes me feel even worse, I just needed to talk to someone who could understand me instead of just telling me to stop like it would be that easy anyway"

"Maybe we do need a break." I said finally accepting the fact that I wasn't doing troye any good. I knew I could get him back again. I just hope it's soon. Seeing him go absolutely crushed me. As he was about to walk past the front door, he hesitated and looked back.

"baby I-"

"don't." I said stopping him. "just go." he closed the door behind him and I curled my fist so hard I could feel my nails cut into my palms. "FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU." I yelled as I punched the nearest wall several times. It had just hit me that I lost him. I had lost troye because I couldn't express myself. I know I should let him have his break but I couldn't help to think that if I went out, I could catch up to him and get him back. But it was useless, he needed his space.

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break up chapter 😩😩