Perries POV ---------------- I woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating next to me, it was a message from Alex
Alex💙- morning beautiful, jade texted me about last night, she told me that you fell asleep whilst texting me after you'd told zayn about the baby. Hope you're okay pezzabear I love you loads princess 😘
Perrie👸🏼- morning babe, I love you loads more💋 sorry I fell asleep I just had all the stuff with zayn on my mind, I'll show you the screenshots some other time but he kept calling me a whore and stuff like that😘xxp
Alex💙- pez, please tell me if there's ever anything wrong, I'll come round as fast as I can, but you look gorgeous when you sleep btw😉 xx
Perrie👸🏼- ?? No clue what you're on about. Hey can you stay at mine tonight? I've invited jade and Jed as well, and Caitlin's got Charlie coming over xx
Alex💙-I'm so sorry baby, I've got my cousins birthday party and I've already said I'd go and you know my mam would kill me if I backed out♥️😩xx
Perrie👸🏼- its fine bubba, don't worry😘hope you have a great time 💋missing you alreadyyy xxx
Alex💙- I'm missing you more😉 I'm changing your name on my phone as well 😘
Perrie👸🏼- huh? Why?
Alex💙- you deserve more princess😘
Perrie👸🏼- okay??
Alex💙- I'm changing it to pezzabear😍
Pezzabear😍- I love you way to much saddo😅 you're mine, remember that xxxxxxxx
I put my phone down and got dressed, I didn't feel hungry at all so decided to skip breakfast, suddenly my phone buzzed
Jadey🤓- hey pezza, I can come tonight but jed can't, he's going away tomorrow so still needs to pack, see you later babe xxx
Perrie❤-that's okay jadey! Alex can't come either, so I guess it's just you, me, caitlin and Charlie xox
Jadey🤓-are they sharing a bed pez? X
Perrie❤-hell no! You and I are using the two sofas, and they'll have an air bed each on the floor xx
Jadey🤓- she wouldn't dare do anything on our watch anyway😂 x
I spent the rest of the afternoon tidying the house and sorting out the air beds, caitlin came downstairs at 3:00 to help me, "hey younger one" I said to her, "hey older one" "You excited about Charlie coming over?" "Yeh, but, well ermmm you and jade aren't going to embarrass me are you?" She asked me "We'll try our best but no promises" I say as I give her a devilish grin.
Charlie was coming over at 5 and jade at 6 because she had to help her mam with something, caitlin and I had been sat watching tv for about two hours when the doorbell went, "I'll get it c", I walked up to the door and opened it, "hi!" I said "you must be Charlie, come in". He stepped inside and followed me to the lounge, caitlin stood up and walked over to him. Charlie wrapped his arms around caitlin and pulled her into a tight hug.
I decided that I should let them sit alone for a bit, "hey you two sit down, I'm gonna go upstairs for a bit, till jade gets here" I smiled as I walked upstairs. I sat down on my bed and went through my phone, I noticed that Alex had posted a new picture on insta,
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Alexoxchamberlain wishing I was spending tonight with my no.1♥️😍
I immediately liked the post and commented. Perrieedwards missing you too much already😭💋
I felt like shit, I just wanted someone to cuddle up to right now, the stress is weighing me down, making my eyes feel so heavy. I can't deal with making a choice about the baby. I can't put myself through this. I can't live with these nightmares. I can't do it anymore. ...
Half an hour passed where I just sat staring at the wall before caitlin came into my room "hey pez. Can I go stay at Charlie's instead?" She asked. I looked at her puzzled, "his mam said I can go round and I thought you'd prefer it if you could have a sleepover with jade because you never get to anymore"
I stood up and walked over to her, "of course you can, but don't tell mam. And separate beds okay" I replied. I knew she just wanted time alone with Charlie but I still appreciated it. She packed her stuff and was gone after five minutes ...
Again I felt terrible. I want the baby but i don't, it's so fucking hard to decide. Everything's having its toll on me.
They're coming back. The horrible thoughts. The downgrading voices in my head. You're fucking stupid. You fuck everything up. Why do you get this involved with people. Why do you let this happen to you. I could hear them, with everything I did. Every decision I make. They come back. Stop being so stupid. There was a time when they went away. The time when Alex was with me all the time protecting me. The last few weeks. But now, they're back, I've not seen him for a day and they're back. Attacking me at every chance they get. I can't deal with it anymore. Do it. No one will care. They all hate you anyway. Do it. Have some courage Perrie. Do it.
Jades POV --------------- I was walking down the road to perries when I got a text from Jed telling me to have a good time. I quickly replied to him and then carried on walking. Pez had told me to let myself in when I got there so as I got to the door I reached out for the handle and closed the door behind me.
I place my bags in the lounge wondering where everyone is, I go into the kitchen but there's no one there. Perrie must me in her room, I get to her room and see a note on her dresser "jade, Caitlin's gone to Charlie's instead. Go sit in the lounge, don't worry about me, x pez x"
I read the note three or four times before I hear some sniffles coming from the bathroom, I walk out of perries room and head towards the bathroom, "Perrie, are you in there?" I could hear her whimpering and could sense the sadness, I knew she was in there, "baba, can I come in, are you ok?" Again I got no reply, apart from more whimpers.
I knew something was up, so I decided to go in, I opened the door to see Perrie sitting on the floor in the corner of the room, curled into a ball, her arms wrapped around her legs.
Her eyes were fixed to a point on the wall, she wasn't blinking, nor were her eyes moving. They were completely fixed, almost frozen. Perrie was rocking forwards and backwards in a shocked manor, it was as though she was panicking. But what about?
Then I spotted the object lying on the floor next to her. 'Shit' I felt my heart crumble into pieces. How could she...
A/N Sorry I took so long to update, but I'm quite happy with this chapter even though it's a bit emotional, so I have quite a big storyline coming up and I really hope you all continue reading. <3
