Fear Of Falling Apart

Introduction

       I, Iris Marks, am a struggler. I struggle with getting the attention of the boy of my dreams. I struggle with anxiety. I struggle with depression. This is my story.
       When I was born, my parents didn't want me. I went up for adoption and now I'm all alone. Well not really, I do have a family, but they shouldn't count. My mom works at the local grocery store and my other mom works at the diner down the street. So as you can imagine, we're definitely not the richest people in New York City. I also have an older brother, Liam. We don't get along to well. Anyway, I hate my family, I'm not like them at all and they treat me like crap.
       Lately I've been thinking about running away but that means that I would have to leave the love of my life, Evan Williams. He's amazing. He's a writer and he's smart. I read his online blog all the time. I love how he's so personal in his writing. The best part is he's single but, very attractive to most of the girls who have a way bigger chance than I ever would.
       I have my best friend here too, Kevin. He's really amazing too, but just as a friend. He keeps me going. When things are going bad he's there and when things are going good, he's still there. I'm also there for him too, but his life is just a little bit different than mine. He has two biological parents that love him to pieces and he's an only child so he's spoiled. Also their pretty wealthy, I think his dad has some kind of important office job or something. I know you're probably wondering why I don't go live with him and his family, well that's because his parents don't like me. Of course they don't, it's been that way my whole life. I am always being judged before people actually bother to get to know me and it sucks... but you start to get used to it after a while.
       Even though the stuff I've told you about myself may make you think I'm a pretty shady person, I'm really not. I get good grades, although I'm not the smartest kid ever but I do as good as I can in school. So this is me.