Staring in this sight of nothingness, it feels empty. Not being able to feel, it feels empty. Not being in pain, it feels empty.
For the first time in my life, I wish I could at least feel pain...
I can't feel my heartbeat anymore. Is this what living is? Or maybe I'm just lacking knowledge on how to live.
I thought living is simply breathing..
Inhale, Exhale, there you go. This is what they call existing.
Maybe I'm dead, I don't know. I am just merely trapped in this body. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I never know anything.
I don't know where and when it started.
My body, my soul, seems to be slowly malfunctioning as I struggle to breathe everyday, trying to live.
The more I try to live, the more I feel buried into this empty never ending path they call "Life".
I see neither darkness nor light. This blurred scenery in front of me isn't beautiful. It's making me feel empty, but I never learned to hate it no matter how I tried.
I wish I could just close my eyes, hoping to feel even just a faint of pain. Happiness, anger, sadness..anything will do.
Hurt me.
Please.
I can't feel anything..
