Changing in a Different Way (Slow Updates)

Chapter 3

"You first," I said.

"No, yours probably isnt as bad as mine." he argued.

"What's worse than getting kicked out by your mother?" I blurted.

"Having Cancer." he replied. I felt like I had been slapped.

I hung up. Do I love him? Really love him? I don't know.

I'm stuck now. Help me. Lily came back, and I put a bright smile on my face too hide any unwanted emotions.

"Alright? Let's go!"

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I remembered I had nothing to go to. I went back to Lily's and told her that I won't stay. I went back to the park.

I got the big bag that I had bought the other day, and the littler one from Claire's. I ended up with five pairs of leggings, my comfy jeans, a hoodie, apart from the one that I was wearing, six tee-shirts and my boots and purple converse. I was wearing my black ones. I got rid of ten tops and seven pairs of trousers. So now, I had my school bag, backpack and this one. I shoved my food in this beach bag type thing. I grabbed the bag with unwanted clothes in it and walked down the nearest charity shop.

I handed it in and the owner handed me a ten pound note. I smiled in gratitude. I had a browse round the shop and picked up another book. I slipped it into the bag with my clothes in it.

I went back to the park. After a while Adam arrived.

" Do you love me Autumn?" he asked his arm warming me. His beautiful ocean eyes looked teary. "Because, Autumn, Ill love you until the day I die,"

I feel so bad now.  I don't love him.

" Adam, you killed my dad," I said bluntly.

" I-I- oh Autumn, you know, I-"

" Shut UP! YOU SPIKED HIS DRINK! ON PURPOSE, AND THEN STABBED HIM FROM BEHIND!" I screamed tears rushing down my face.

Only cowards hit from behind.

"I'm sorry" he trailed off.

"No you're NOT! I wouldn't be homeless right now, I would have a dad! You would NEVER kill your own girlfriends DAD!"

He walked out the tree. I was desperate to see what he was going to do. I don't know why. He sat on the grass for about ten minutes and then walked to the lake. I gasped. I'm about to see another suicide. He dived in.

And never came back up.

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"NO!" I screamed, scrambling out the tree, dragging my belongings with me. I saw the thing, he must've been writing. I started to read.

Dear my beautiful Autumn,

I'm ripped apart inside. Your dad hated me. I don't know what made me kill him. Hatred I suppose.

I'm sorry you had to witness this. Again.

I only had a month left anyway. Better to end it now.

I hope you have learnt something from this,  a good something.

I'll love you forever, I was stupid to do this. Keep it quiet yeah?

Love Adam xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I feel numb.

I drew out the knife I had stolen from Lily's house.

I cut a deep cut in my wrist. It gave me one pain to focus on.

I didn't love him though. Now I understand why Lissy did it.

"keep it quiet,"

No, I won't.

I gathered my stuff and got the bus into the city to the police station. I brought the letter as evidence.

"I like- no- hate to report a committed suicide. I witnessed it and I have evidence," I said to the receptionist.

"OK, would you like to take a seat, we will be with you soon," she answered.

I walked over to the wooden benches.

"I'm here too see my son," I heard an soft voice whisper beside me. "Put in jail for doing drugs and murder," I turned to look and it was an old frail lady.

" Reporting an attempt if suicide," I quickly said. "I've witnessed two and a murder…" I had to stop. Why am I telling this old person this? What does she care?

"Would you like too cone with me? Im  PC Lockwood." I got up and followed this man. I could feel the eyes of that old woman burning through my body and mind, like she knew what I was going through.

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"We have read your evidence but may we discuss and get some details from you?" I nodded my head."Name?"

"Autumn Hartley,"

"Address?"

"12- wait no. I don't have one." I muttered.

" You must…wait. Are you homeless?" PC Lockwood asked. I gulped.

" Yes. I got kicked out by my mother." I hung my head down.

" oh sweetie, tell us the address and we will get the social services on it," he nodded his head reasuringly. I answered his questions and then the big one came.

" We can offer you a house? Its only basic, but near the centre, and not very faulty."

"Yes please! I have time now! Could I move in?"

"Sure! There is an small amount of money to pay, but the council and social services will pay for the most of it. Normally you would be put in care, but as you're eighteen, you're two years over the limit,"

"OK"

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