Changing in a Different Way (Slow Updates)

Changing in a Different Way

I hate this new house. I hate everything about it. Its too big, but I don't even care what Mum says with here making it a B&B or not.

I just sat in my tiny bedroom and looked out. I knew he weren't coming back. And because of that I was depressed.

You don't realise how much I miss him, and that Mum got Worm face replacing the one with that person who she claims she loves. That's why I'm seriously not happy.

I suppose I like the views and that here but Mum said if we move, no memories will occur. That just a annoys me. I don't think she realized how close me and Dad were. She was jealous. So she decided to get me to forget Fad and love Worm face, like she does. Callie, my big sister, says he's alright. So right now I'm just angry at everyone.

Mum is making us move so she can try and make me forget about Dad like she did with my best friend who killed herself with self harm and then committed suicide I watched her do it. She took a knife out the draw sluiced her wrists then jammed it in her heart. We was drinking lemonade. In my house. Mum doesn't keep knives low down anymore.

Soon I got over Lissy, but of course I wouldn't forget her. Who forgets their own dead best friend.

I knew that Mum was trying to move on, but deep down, she was so... dead.

Although this room was small it had a perfectly beautiful view of the sea front in which our new home lay on.

Maybe, just maybe, I might begin to like this place. Well. I still had first day of school approaching. I have to get through that.

Soon enough, it came to the day. I looked hideous in my new maroon blazer. My tan-colour satchel matches it at least. Slightly. I put my new pencil-case, a hairbrush, makeup bag and a notepad and a plastic folder for projects and homework. I decided to do good in this school, unlike I did in my last.

I walked into reception and she gave me my planner, dinner card, timetable and locker key. I knew I was quite early so I wondered the corridors hoping on my life to find it. I did so I opened it and fixed my hair in the cracked mirror. Instantly I knew what I was going to put in there.

In first period I sat as near to the back as possible. I kept my head down, but I was fully aware of what was being said about me.

"Hey, you're that girl that was best friends with Lissy! Didn't she commit suicide in your house?"

My face was starting to flare up and my vision was going blurry. I grabbed my books and bag and pens and ran out the classroom. Definitely NOT a good start. How do they know Lissy.

Then I remembered. She spent Year 7 in this school. Someone was bulling her and she nearly killed them when she had gained the courage to fight back, so she got expelled. Her mum was so disappointed in her, she gave up on poor Lissy. That's when she started self-harming.

Lissy was a perfect little girl from the happiest family. Her mum gave up on her, so then her dad felt like he was the only side of the family glued on tightly, so he decided to rip that apart and find a happier one. Maybe it truly is the calm before the storm.

Thing is, I'm not sure anymore.

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I was walking back home when I thought that I couldn't just go back. I'm sagging school. On my first day. Oh I'm so stupid!

Not even a chance to make any new friends, so I'll probably be alone for the rest of my time here. At least its Year 9.

Wait.

My GCSES.

This means that I need to attend school. I'll just have to go back. I promised to myself that I would do well, and try hard in this school.