Random Heartbreak

Letting Go

I can't let go.
I should for my own good.
It's not healthy what I'm doing to myself because of you.
You make me feel ugly and the thing is, I don't want to listen to you but I still stick around you.
I'm the one doing this to myself.
I can end all of this easily.
I would be able to sleep easier if I just left you.
You already know anyways.
You always knew I would leave, didn't you?
You even told me that I would leave you one day.
You were joking but I wasn't laughing.
I didn't laugh because I knew it was true.
That day is coming soon and I'm bracing myself for it.
It was bound to happen at some point.
I was never like you.
You're looking for something else in a relationship, someone just like you.
I'm nothing like you.
We've never seen eye to eye and you didn't like that.
So much you started to bring me down because of it.
I almost went down to your level, I admit that.
Good thing I wasn't as guilable as you thought and easily ignored the lies you were telling me.
I believed the lies for a few, stupid seconds before I realized I had my own thoughts and life.
I didn't have to be like you.
I am who I am.
Not who you want me to be.
You were always there for me, I know, but I still have to let go.
Now that you're hindering my growth, I can't be around you anymore.
You're everything familiar to me, my home, but I still have to let go.
It'll definitely hurt but it hurts right now too.
I love you, always will, but it ends right here, before we end up completely breaking each other.
I'm letting you go.