*Chad’s P.O.V.*
When I woke up, I felt like crap; I barely got any sleep and my back hurt from sleeping in the chair all night. I was also mentally a wreck from everything that had happened last night. I looked down at Skylar who was sleeping peacefully, still in my arms and I brought him over to his crib and lied him down. He shifted slightly but continued to sleep.
I walked out and into the living room, and a wave of fear hit me when Röbby was nowhere to be found. I did a quick search of the room and took a deep breath of relief when I saw that all of his things were still here. I gathered myself and walked into the bathroom to get ready.
Making sure not to catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror, I turned on the shower and stripped down as the water warmed up, then stepped in and sighed as the water cascaded down my pale body. I started to relax for a while now that I was alone, but couldn’t stop myself from thinking about Röbby. Where was he? Did he leave so he wouldn’t have to deal with me when I woke up?
I felt like I was going to cry again. I knew it was stupid; I was just an ugly, emotional, lonely little bitch that no one wanted to love.
When I got out of the shower, I looked at the body-length mirror that I had stupidly decided to put in the bathroom (It was mainly Porcelain’s idea), and I did then start to cry. No wonder Porcelain didn’t want me; I was hideous just like I had always been, all she did was make the mistake of saying “yes”. I didn’t blame her for leaving me anymore.
I was short. I was pale. My body was in weird proportions; I had a chubby face, a scrawny waist and wide hips. My thighs were fat. My face was ugly; my eyebrows were thick and short and my eyes were far apart, my nose was big and I had a horrible smile.
Why would anyone ever love me?
Tears ran down my cheeks as I opened up the cabinet above the sink and pulled out a razor blade that I had hidden in there. I looked at it, the light shining off of it as I held it between my fingers.
I… I couldn’t.
Could I?
I had to. I just had to.
I held the blade above my wrist and took a deep breath, then brought it down, the cool metal touching my skin; I didn’t push it in quite yet, I was only preparing. After a few seconds, I was ready; I began to push down-
“Chad?”
I jumped and dropped the blade, nicking my skin in the process as I heard Röbby’s voice coming from the living room.
“Y-Yeah?” I replied, and I heard him walk over to the door of the bathroom. He stood on the other side of the door as he spoke,
“You ok?” he asked, and I frowned.
“Yeah,” I lied, “Why wouldn’t I be?”
I noticed that his voice showed a hint of concern, “You just sound a little shaken.”
I sighed, angry that he had interrupted me.
I tried to sound normal, “I’m fine, Röbby. Really.”
There was silence for a moment before he said “Alright, well, please come out ok? I want to talk to you.”
Oh god. He wanted to talk to me… he was going to tell me that he changed his mind about living here, I just knew it.
I held back tears as I carefully put the razor away and held some toilet paper to the small cut on my wrist. Once it had stopped bleeding enough, I got dressed and walked out into the living room slowly.
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Don't Let Me Go ~ Chad Kowal x Robby Creasey (Chabby)
FanfictionSix months after getting engaged to Porcelain and even having a baby with her, Chad is ditched by her, leaving him to take care of the baby on his own. What happens when Röbby is the one left to pick up the pieces of his broken heart?