Harry's POV
I stare at myself in the mirror, wondering what did I do. What did I do wrong? How did everything just blow up? How did it go from being with her to wondering if she's dead or not, or if she's being tortured. I wonder is any of this would have happened if we didn't set her up with her idol. The best gift ever turns out to be the worst.
I run over the odds on my head again, and even though I don't want to believe it, I'm almost sure she's dead. Her being attacked by the lion, she wasn't well fed in the first place, her coming back from the dead, oh and the big one. Snow absolutely hates her. I just wish that billet pierced my head so I could be with her. A tear rolls down my face, and then another one.
I hear the door open and quickly wipe them
away with the back of my hand. If they knew I was crying, they'd put me with a psychologist who thinks they know what I'm going through, but they don't. They never had to fight to the death and lose someone so special, and wonderful. They don't understand that my main purpose of me going to the games, was to protect her, and I failed. "Hey you ready to go to the meeting?" Liam asks leaning against the wall next to me.
"I don't want to go." I say flatly.
"Come on Harry, you missed the last four and I think this one is about.."
"Don't say it. Don't say her name, and I'm sorry if I don't want to hear about how sorry they are for me and what plans they aren't going to do to get her back."
Liam huffs and closes his eyes and slugs a little bit. "Wear ear plugs if you have to. That's what helps Nikki." He says opening his eyes and looking at me. "This could be important, Harry. I want her back as much as you do. We all do, and this could be it. We need to know what's happening to get her back, and you not attending the meeting is not helping.
"You think it is so you don't have to hear about her, so you don't have to feel the pain, but it's not. We need to know what is happening, so she can come back."
"And what if she's dead?" I ask.
"Harry, you can't think like that. You know that if this situation was reversed, you know she'd never stop believing in you. You would be holding on to every ounce of life you had just for her, and I'm sure she's doing the same."
We stare at each other for a while until I give up. I grab the sling for my arm and walk out of the bathroom. Louie, Niall, Zayn and Nikki were waiting outside the door. "We ugh, didn't think he could talk you into going and we were prepared to drag you to the meeting ourselves," Nikki says.
"Should've known," I say dully and we all begin walking to command. It's a quiet and uncomfortable walk. They haven't trusted me as much ever since the whole incident, but I promised I wouldn't try to kill my self again.
The meeting room was empty besides everyone who was necessary to be there. It really must be important.
I throw myself in a chair at the thick glass table with the S.S.O.P symbol in the middle, almost like the tattoo she had. Haymitch was drunk in a chair with his head on the table. Katniss sat at the head. Two guns crossing each other. "They directed her to be in charge until this is all over." Nikki says in my ear. "We need to decide on a plan. We need to get them out." Gale says.
"What has you determined all of a sudden?" Louie asks.
"Show them." Katniss says and begins to explain, "There was a video broadcasting on every TV in Panem. That kid is smart. He didn't direct straight it to us."
"He probably didn't even know where we were, Katniss," Gale says.
"Was it her?" I ask.
"No." Katniss says putting a hand on my shoulder and then pressing a button. Matthew face lights up the screen and I almost want to look away. Big red and purple bruises scattered his face and his nose and lip was bleeding. He looked even worse then in the games.
I hear everyone gasp behind me.
"I don't have a lot of time I snuck away, and if they find me they'll kill me. They're looking. For all of you. They're going to track you down. They are going to start tomorrow afternoon. Bombing. Searching. They want you to give up. Don't give up. Help them." There is the sound of the door opening and it filled with heavy footsteps and white suits. He tried to fight them pull them off of him. His face was back in the camera for two seconds and he looked worse. "Don't worry about us. I'm looking after her We're fine. Lillian is fine." He says in a hurried breath. I stand up. They finally get a hold of him and you can hear him resisting and screaming in pain. "She's holding up. No help. We're fine." He shouts and his voice gets quieter and quieter. There's a horrible crack noise and one more thing before the scream goes blank.
I'm breathing a little heavier. "She's okay." I murmur. "She's holding up. What does that mean?" I say looking around like a crazy man.
"Well first come down," Daniel said. He's the second in command around here.
"We need a plan." Gale says. "If that's what he looks like I can't imagine what she looks like."
"Gale." Katniss says.
His words process through my head and I feel everyone's eyes on me. "So what's the plan? And the uh, bombing?" Katniss sits back down and closes her eyes.
"Well the bombing is under control. We don't think he's going to bomb any of the districts. We think it was to scare us and surprise us, but now that we know about it. There's no point." Daniel says.
"And the plan?" Louie asks.
"I understand that you guys want to be apart of this. So I'm going to make you a deal. Leave the actual making of plans to us, and Gale will make room on his team for you. Until then, we need to focus on a full proof plan and I want you no where near us until we have one. So go, do something. Follow your schedules, just go do something. Gale get Beetee and some of his crew, and some of your own, see if Peeta can come here along with my mom and Johanna and someone get rid of Haymitch. He's miserable enough. Didn't I say go?" Katniss says looking at us. We look at each other. "Trust me. I'm not going to make the same mistake they did before. I'm going to get them out before they do anything like what they did last time. You can trust me. I got her into this, I'm going to get her out."
We nod and leave. I can trust her. I can totally trust her. Lillian is fine. Matthew is taking care of her. She's okay. I'm okay. Right?
