The Light Between Forever

Part 1

Day 143;
That's 143 days of laying in darkness alone with just my thoughts and I .
143 days of missing you .
143 days of avoiding your favorite things just because it gives me pain to do them without you .
143 days of crying alone without your arms around me for comfort.
143 days of avoiding the paths you took through the forests just because your precious feet once walked there .
143 days of rewriting a way to fully say goodbye.
143 days of ignoring texts because I only want to talk to you .
143 days of touching the picture you left behind just so I can have a sense of you . 143 days of wearing your t-shirt just so nobody else could ruin how perfect it was , how perfect you were .143 days without you here .
143 days of finding ways to get hurt for the sake of feeling nothing. You always said feeling hurt is better than feeling nothing, it's not quite working.
I've been shutting everyone else out , You're the only one that should be here . You NEED to be here . This earth needs you . I need you . I need something to live for . I've been told that forever is a long time , but my forever left when you did . What is forever without someone to spend it with ? Maybe that's all that I really need ,A new forever. I hope you're enjoying your new forever. I just wish I was included in your forever.

Yours Truly , Alexander

(P.S I left behind some flowers in your bedroom, your mother let me in .I hope you don't mind )