[ 07 ; im jaera ]

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by fckmymino

by fckmymino

seeing jinwoo smiling and laughing sometimes with a tiny smirk on his face reminds me so much about the crazy things that happened in year three. you know, he remained unchanged to me. no matter how different he is to other people, he is still that hot boy i met in year one, high school. never will i forget that innocent smile on his face on day one, he changed so much and i don't want to remind myself about the confession because seeing his face again makes me regret so much... for rejecting him.

seungyoon. i wasn't wrong about him, he's the same as jaehwa , not exactly the same they are a bit different. they both left me, i loved them both, i thought they were fuckboys in the beginning and i really trusted them both a lot. the only difference is, that i believe if jaehwa was still here, he'd still love me. and i can't possibly make my foolish self believe that seungyoon still loves me no matter how hard i really wish it's true.

god, it's been so long and i just still can't forget... high school was a big mess.

"hey, jae... can you come to my room for a second? i want to... talk... " jinwoo asked as he knocked lightly on my door in case i was sleeping.

"sure," i opened the door and walked to his room. i sat down on a chair and lifted my head up, "so..."

"i'm gonna be straight forward here and i just need to ask you, do you still have feelings for seungyoon? just a bit?"

"jinwoo, if this is what you want to ask me about then i've to go. this really isn't something i want to talk about and-"

"ok, then do you not have feelings for me anymore? not at all?"

"jinwoo, i'll call you oppa, but you need to stop giving me all these questions because i really can't answer without feeling embarrassed..."

"embarrassed? are you the im jaera i know? come on, answer my questions, if you don't i'm going to make you,"

"how-"

he pinned me to the chair, his faces only a few inches away from mine. his dark eyes looked into mine and i swallowed.
"jinwoo..."

"ha, you scared?" he moved himself away from me as he smirked, "i might as well do that everytime you won't listen to me."

"that was rude..."

"so answer my question if you don't want me to be rude again," he slightly smirked and i cursed under my breath.

every single time, you're always that one who makes me feel like this.
kim jinwoo.