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it's been a while since claire and i came to london, almost a year. she dragged me here after seungyoon and i broke up, i was right, high school love really doesn't last long.

though i must admit, maybe it's just me because mino and claire, they're still together. and how much they trust each other really shocks me.

oh right, jinwoo came back! mino called claire a few days ago to tell her the good news which wasn't that good for me since mino also asked her if she's coming back. mino said he misses her. and let me be honest here, i miss all of them too, especially jinwoo. but if we went back, seungyoon would also be there which makes everything awkward.

claire knows exactly what i was thinking about so she told mino we have no plans of going back yet. why go back to seoul? london is beautiful i tell ya, it's just that english is really hard for me and i don't know, the thought of going back gives me shivers and goosebumps because seungyoon and i we broke up and even till today, we haven't talked, not at all.

ask me if i miss him, i really don't. he stopped being sweet to me, stopped talking to me everyday and he just changed. he changed so much that i didn't believe that the seungyoon who was standing in front of me the day we broke up was the one that sat next to me in high school, asking me if he could hang out with me with a light blush on his face.

his attitude towards me, it just wasn't the same. i didn't mind him not talking to me everyday because now we're in university maybe he was busy with work but weeks after weeks, i was always the one to start conversations and he always replied with plain, simple words. like : yes, no, k, thanks, bye. i couldn't stand it, i asked him if he doesn't love me anymore and he didn't even look at me and said, of course i still love you, why you asking? 

you might wonder, he said he loved me, why am i still being an overthinking bitch. that's only because when i ask him this question before we graduated high school, he'd pull me into a hug and say sweet things like i love you, only you, i'll love you forever. but he stopped doing that. i couldn't stand his attitude anymore so i broke up with him. 

everything changed.