A Very Special Romance (BOOK 3 COMPLETE)

Chapter 32

"Then, anong plano mo ngayon?"

"Baka uuwi ng Zambaonga, dun sa Lola at Lolo ko. Hayst, tatanggapin ba kaya nila ako? Siguradong pinaghahanap na naman ako ng mga pamilya kong Chinese na OA."

"Di mo talaga sila tanggap, noh?"

"Yung stepmother ko lang ang tanggap ko. Siya lang ang nagmamahal sa akin na parang isang anak. Yung grandparents ko, hayst, halos ipagsigawan na nila sa buong earth na kinahihiya nila ako. Pati yung mga pinsan ko, mga aunties ko, di ko sila nakakasundo, hayst..."

"Maybe, learn to accept them slowly and love them after."

"Someday, if they will learn that loving someone, we can't dictate our heart. Pwedeng magka-forever ang Chinese at Filipino."

"Yeah," I smiled at her.

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Hayst, I sat on the bed, thinking of the problem.

Sasabihin ko ba kay Eros? No, dahil kakamuhian niya ako at masasaktan siya ng husto, lalong-lalo na ako.

Iiwan ko ba siya? No, dahil...mamatay ako nun.

Keep this as a secret? No, dahil ha-hauntingin ako ng konsensiya ko. At isa pa, no secrets last forever.

Itutulog ko ba 'to? Yes, dahil pagod ako sa kaiisip, sasabog na ang utak ko sa kakaisip, nakokonsensiya ako. Gusto ko ng umiyak, sumigaw, but I can't.

I was married to the one I dearly love, I took the opportunity to be his wife, to love him again, to feel him again, to be with him again, to feel what's life with him again...yung opportunity na yun, kukunin lang ng isang kahapon.

GRABEH! ANAK....SORRY NA!

Humiga ako sa kama, niyakap ang isang unan na umiiyak.

"What I am going to do?"

Niloloko ko si Eros nito. I was the on hurting him in the first place since the world begun.

He did not cheat on me cause Alice was his sister, and I misinterpreted it.

He broke up with me because of my dreams, his career and my father. Hindi niya intention.

He waited for me for five years.

He suffered because of me, cause he loved me so much.

He did everything to have our love a second chance.

He made me feel special all the time, he never leave me, he always showed to me how much he loved me. And...mu gosh...

I was lying to him.

Na, mabuti akong babae, ako ang para sa kanya, ako ang ka-match niya. Na sa totoo, hindi pala. Cause, right now, feeling ko, hindi ako diserve ni Eros. He was far too good for me, and I'm not good for him, dahil pinatay ko anak namin.

PINATAY KO!

I gripped the pillow, and my tears were dropping really-really hard. The pain of the possibilty that Eros will leave me, and will be hurt because of me gave me the greatest fear. I can't take it. Ayaw ko ng masaktan, at ayaw ko na siyang mag-suffer dahil sa akin. Masyado ko siyang mahal. Mahal na mahal.

Thinking of the big problem, and emotional pain, nakatulog na lang ako sa pag-iyak.

Eros's POV

I closed the door of our room when I have discovered that my wife was here, lying in bed, hugging my pillow. Hayst, ako dapat kayakap niya, eh. Kanina ko pa siya hinahanap talaga. She excused herself two hours ago na mag-Cr, di na bumalik.