I was eleven at this point. I had developed anxiety and depression. I thought everything was completely normal. This was no normal everyday thing. Not to everyone else at least.
I started having suicidal thoughts. Constantly. I started loosing more and more confidence as the year went on. I had already lost confidence in the past.
The suicidal thoughts, depression, and anxiety got to me in a way that nothing else could. I didn't try to kill myself but I started cutting. It wasn't a good sight. I thought it was fine because it made me feel better. Little did I know that just a small sharp blade to my skin could easily kill me.
My cutting habit went on and on. Non Stop. I turned twelve and it calmed down a bit. I thought it was over, all of my depressing and suicidal thoughts were over! Oh boy was I in for a treat. It wasn't over.
I also started having what I would call 'Anorexic Thoughts' that year. It's horrible. One week I'm starving myself and the next week I'm binging. I know I'm not fat when I'm around people but then I look in the mirror and suddenly I feel fat. I would even just look at people I see everyday that were bigger than me but prettier, and think "I wish I was as skinny as them". It's not a good situation.
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This Little Girl
Krótkie OpowiadaniaA little girl by the name of Samantha, didn't grow up with an average life. She thought all of her life that all this was normal. Boy was she in for a treat. This life that this little girl was living in would soon all crumble to the ground. Yet wit...