My first priority is to clear up some confusion about Bipolar Disorder.
Bipolar isn't just having mood swings. It isn't an adjective you can use to describe someone. It. Is. A. Illness. It's just as serious as diabetes or heart disease or anything along those lines. I have to take medicine and go to doctors and make sure everything is running smoothly.
Now let me tell you what it really is. Bipolar Disorder is characterized by two stages: manic and depressive. Depressive is just like what it sounds. Extreme depression. Manic is the opposite (and harder to explain). Manic is a state of energy and impulsiveness. You basically go from 0 (depressive), to 100 (manic). People in the manic state feel they have "powers" and have extreme self confidence. You tend to do more impulsive things when you are in the manic state. Like going on an expensive shopping spree, or going on a spur of the moment vacation with all of your friends.
These two states can last anywhere from a couple of days to years. You basically just keep cycling in and out of these stages for the rest of your life. THAT is what Bipolar Disorder is.
All of my doctors have been iffy (for lack of a better word) to diagnose me. Why? Because I have an extremely hard time opening up to people. Anytime I have to talk about something serious, I cry. I have always used comedy to build a wall between my problems. So when a doctor evaluates me, I'm scared, and I'm not entirely honest.
You see, my other problem is that one of my biggest fears is being a burden to others. I HATE whining about problems. So I always tell my doctors that it's "not that bad!", when in reality, I'm lowkey "that bad".
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Invisible Illness
Kurgu OlmayanI was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was thirteen. My life has never been the same since. I would give anything to be normal. To enjoy my life like a regular teenager. Go through the same struggles all teens go through. But I can't and I...
