~Sweaters and t-shirts~

~9~

You would not belive your eyes if ten million fire flies

What if he uses you?

Lit up the world as I feel asleep 

WHAT IF HE DOESNT LIKE YOU 

Cause they fill the open air  and leave tear drops everywhere 

AFTER ALL YOUR JUST A PEICE OF SHIT!

You beg me rude but I would just stand and stare

SHUT UP! I mumble loud enough for me to hear I'm so tired of these voices every time they talk my mind feels numb and I'm just hurts to the point where I want to sleep and just fucking sleep I'm so tired of this

Why not make everything numb

How do I do that? 

There's a safety pin in your pocket... maybe you can draw blood 

...but...wouldn't that hurt...? Wouldn't that make things worse? 

Not if you do it multiple times....

I arrive at School Chris and pj are right in front of me "HEY BUD-." Pj said "not now have to use bathroom." I said in a flat tone. I walk to the bathroom pj and Chris said they'd wait for me outside the rest room. I take out the safety pin open the "safety part" and glide the sharp end across my skin it burn but feels good.. it numbs the pain it numbs the voices I glide it 6 times across my wrist not caring about it at all. Little tiny drops of blood form on the torn skin satisfied... that's what it feels like... I pull down my sleeve to cover the torn skin I walk out the bathroom with a blank expression Chris pulls me by the wrist the bell rang a minute ago it burns they burn I pull my wrist out of Chris's grip, he looks at me I panic "SORRYMYHANDHURTARTHRITIS." 

BUZZ BUZZ

Saved by the bel- ring...

New kik message from phillester💿

Phillester💿:hey you okay? 

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I feel numb my head hurts it's not like a head ache it just feels numb... I don't know I'm also really fucking thirsty ANYWAYYYYYSSSS DONT CUT THATS BAD 

BUH BYE GORGEOUS ILY~💜