Bloom

Letting Go

L e t t i n g G o

I guess you could call it the hardest thing that could ever happen. Something that hurts too much to think about, but you do it anyways because you feel too heartbroken not to. Especially when it's something, someone you love. If you let go, just for a moment, they're gone, just like that. And the saddest part is, you hope that you can somehow get them back, whereas deep in your heart, mind and chest, you know that they're never coming back. Ever.

Seconds pass. Days, weeks, months, years. But it never goes away. The thought of him/her/that. You can hold onto memories on end and cry over endless pictures of when you were happy, when you still had that one thing or person you loved. But pictures aren't reality. They won't start magically moving and they won't suddenly somehow suck you back into the past, no matter how much you want to believe it. And it sucks at first, no doubt about it. It sucks like hell. But guess what. That's reality, not the photos that froze time for a little while-- Just for an escape.

But it's okay.

Even if you scream at yourself, forcing yourself to believe that life is horrible. Believing that life can never get better. It's okay. Everything's okay. You're okay. It dosen't take much for everything to be okay again. All you have to do, is let go. Let go of everything. Just for a while. A short moment. A tiny second is enough. Let go and..... release it. Let it out. All out. No holding back. Scream. Scream till' there's nothing left in your heart. No love, no pain. Everything. Let it out. And take it all back. Even the bad. Take back the tears, the hate, the pain. And trust me, even though nothing's changed, you'll feel.... free.

I can't promise you success. I can't promise that this will be easy. But I promise you some hope. Whenever you feel like you're running out, just remember that I have an endless supply of it. I promise that I'll be here, holding a smile and a shoulder to cry on. I'll be here when you need to let go. I'll listen to your rants and cries. I won't leave when you scream in my face or when you push me out the door. I'll just keep ringing the doorbell until you open up again. Letting go of someone, something loved isn't easy. Isn't painless. But, *Waves* hiiii!!!!!!! I'm still here and I still have ears that'll listen.

Your past. That's what I was talking about, if you didn't catch on. Let go of your past. Of the pictures of your childhood that you can never ever get back. The moments imprinted in your mind. Let it out. Let it go. But even when you feel like the whole world comes crashing down, you won't be forgotten. You'll be a moment imprinted in my mind. The past. A past that I'll let go of, but eventually take back in. You won't be forgotten, even when everything is let go of.

I will remember. Always.

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"When life wasn't crappy cause we were simply just happy."