Serve And Protect - Blackstar x Reader

~ Part Four ~

Your POV -

You walked home with Soul and Maka since they had to pass your house to get home, but all you could do was think about Blackstar. You couldn't believe you were actually beginning to like him as more than a friend, or at least that's what you hoped. You had barely knew him a week and all of a sudden he was tugging at your heartstrings, you weren't complaining about anything other than the uncertainty of his feelings towards you though, it was difficult to try work out how he felt about you since he was normally all about himself. Though he made time for you, you didn't really see it as meaning anything much more than just being friendly. Maka noticed you were drowned out in thought and turned to you.

"(y/n), you okay ?" She asked, she genuinely looked worried which was really nice to feel like someone cared and made it obvious that they did. You didn't want to be rude, but you would rather speak to Maka while Soul wasn't present, it would just be preferred that he wasn't around while you spoke about his best friend and how you were pretty sure you were crushing on him even though you had barely even known him a month. You just nodded and smiled at her, realising you should probably snap out of your daze while you were around other people.

"Yep, I'm fine." You said, you sounded so convincing you had even convinced yourself you were fine for a minute. Maka just smiled, giving you an uncertain look. You walked into your house, smiling at her and giving her and Soul a hug before departing from them as they walked home.

'What if I end up loving him.. What happens ? Do I tell him ? Why's this happening to me..' My thoughts trailed off when I heard a noise coming from the kitchen, I panicked, picking up a baseball bat from the corner of my living room which was the room I was in. I stood up cautiously, looking into the kitchen only to see Spirit, a wave of relief washed over me.

"What are you doing ?" I asked, clearly irritated by him being here.

"Calm down, (y/n), Lord Death sent me to see how your day went today." He said, I sat down on the couch.

"It went fine, tell him I'll talk to him soon, don't climb through my kitchen window !" I was irritable and shouting, he quickly walked to the front door and escorted himself out. I sighed, plopping down on the couch and sinking into it, wrapping myself in a blanket and falling asleep.

BlackStars POV -

I couldn't stop thinking about (y/n), the hug we shared was more intimate than any hug I've shared with anyone. There was definitely something between us, but I had no idea how to settle it and decided that it was probably best to confess to my feelings, I didn't love her, but I could definitely tell I was falling for her.. It was as if whenever I was with her butterflies were in the pit of my stomach, she made me the happiest I've ever been and honestly if I want anyone by my side when I surpass the gods, it'll be her. It has to be her, she gives me motivation like no other even without trying. Just seeing her face is enough to push me over the edge of absolute joy, it's as if the weight of the world is entirely off of my shoulders whenever I'm around her, as if I'm floating on a cloud and don't need support, all I want to do is be with her.

"Blackstar ?" I heard a soft voice belonging to tsubaki from the other side of my door.

"Come in." I said, she walked in and looked at me.

"What's going on with you and (y/n) ?" She asked, not as if it was any of her business, but it was nice to be able to talk about how I felt about her and since I told Tsubaki near enough everything, this wasn't something I could hide from her forever. She could always sense when something was going on in my life, I never knew how, but it was always a case where she could sense it wether it be how I spoke or how I acted, and considering the length of time I hugged (y/n) for without even knowing her for over a week, it wouldn't be hard to see something was going on. I told her everything, I told her exactly how I felt about (y/n) too, she was a good listener. She listened to me talk about how nice (y/n) is, and how I just really want to confess and just come out and say that I love her but I can't. It's not possible. I couldn't just tell her that I like her and have her not return that feeling, the feeling I would be rejected sent shivers down my spine, so much so that I had goosebumps on my arms just thinking about how horrible it would be if she was to reject me after me pouring my heart and soul into telling her how much I liked her, just like how I told tsubaki I liked (y/n), I poured  my heart and soul into picking up the courage to tell tsubaki I really liked (y/n), so now all I had to do was manage to repeat it again, only this time, to (y/n)...

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Idk how to feel about this chapter tbh, like I thought it was cringe and didn't make much sense but I really like how it turned out sort of thing, sorry if you don't like it haha

~ Sophie (Night_wolf27 )