The Adventure Of Love.

As it comes.

  I looked at the night sky wondering, thinking about everything that just happen. Thinking about everything nothing was left out, and then I felt a tear run down my face. More tears came along with it, I looked around for something not knowing what exactly. I sat on my porch just feeling every second of the hurt of letting someone go. All i can think about is seeing my children when I walk in the house seeing my father. Trying to cover up the fact that my heart just got broken and kicked around. I stood up quickly and began my walk in my house I smiled and opened the door looked around set my purse on the small brown table next to the t.v. Look at my darling daughter Mia as she sat there brushing her dolls hair. I smiled then Lillia came around the corner smiling gave me a hug they were twins and before I knew it 11 years old. Then oh, here came the trouble maker my 6 year old Sarla her big bright blue eyes dark skin and crazy hair. I sat next to Mia just watching that show on the t.v. Then my tall father came holding a small card and he handed to me with a hug. I walked down the small steps to my room brushing my hair and teeth I looked down at my left hand which had a ring 925 sterling silver I sighed and turned around and greeted my husband with a kiss on the forehead. As I walked out to put my 3 kids to sleep. Tucked them all in with kisses, all I could think is these are some spoiled children that I have. Each there own room with t.v.'s and I walk down our stairs, and lay in bed quietly I hug my husband and I think he talked to me but I probably zoned out and he fell asleep. I got up and put on my bath robe and walked out to once again looked at the night sky. I looked at my phone 3 messages and 2 missed calls, not bothering to check them quickly closed my phone not wanting to see what anyone had to say about anything. I walked around my huge house silently and slowly. I sat on the hammock  finally read the messages Reading; Are you okay?  do you need anything? Hello? I typed yeah i'm fine thank you, and I quit responding and just cried my eyes out. Not knowing whats next all I think is that I was married and I feel in love and I dying over because he's leaving my life. I still cry to this day, wondering why and what could of happen if I didn't get married 3 times and I meet him sooner. Life has a messed up way of letting you meet the right people but at the wrong time. That's what karma did me today, or for the past year I've wasted my time putting in the effort. For the year of my life that I wasted on a man who never loved me, and in the back of my mind I still hopped and prayed for him to love me. I sat there and remembered all the memories all the times he made me smile they were all fake. All of them.