I have this empty feeling inside of me. It sucks because as much as I try to fill this empty feeling, nothing can satisfy it to where I'm generally happy. I've worked so hard to find myself and figure out what I want to do with my life and yet I still feel like I don't do enough to make it better. I'm starting to lose the motivation that I once had and it's sad that I'm letting it happen. I shouldn't allow myself to become like this because I've been there before and I don't want to go back but it's so hard when all you feel like doing is running away. I don't know I'm losing myself and I don't know what to do. It's crazy because I feel like writing helps so much more than talking to my friends. Of course friends are there when you're feeling down but often times they don't truly understand what goes on in your head and sometimes it's not worth sharing because not everyone will see or feel what you have and it's never easy describing something that you don't even know yourself. I don't know I feel like I've just been living but not fully living. I hope things turn out for the better and I hope things will fall into it's place because I'm tired of waking up and living the same routine. I need change.
