Love Me

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"It is an absolute human certainty that no one can know his own beauty or perceive a sense of his own worth until it has been reflected back to him in the mirror of another loving, caring human being."- John Joseph Powell

As I glance at myself in the mirror, I see nothing extraordinary it had been beaten in me that I would be nothing, that I was less than a piece of shit left on the ground for another person to step in, I'm nothing but a burden, something that should not exists, we'll that's what my mother tells me, I pulled myself close to the mirror in my bathroom glancing at the broken girl  with such exotic milk chocolate skin, with light brown Woolly hair down to her waist, her big hazel doe eyes that will have a person lost in the galaxies beneath them,the plump pink luscious lips desperately wanting to be kissed , she had the body of Aphrodite curves as deep as the waves from the wildest oceans her breast large round and perky, hips were hypnotic and could have any man dreaming of the goddess of a woman withering underneath them while she cried a siren's song of pleasure. looking deep into her eyes through the glass reflection she couldn't help but break down being strong all the time takes a toll on the mind the tears stained her beautiful face, the strongest where the most hurt. You think life is all lollipops and gumdrops baby? Well guess what ,it's not a fucking fairytale, I don't got shit, all I got is the body I'm in, the color of my skin, and Anger. Everything would have been different If I was born a different skin tone,  if I was claimed to a different society, Everything would  have been different if I was not constantly at war defending myself from white America Such a toxic land of false advertisement. land of the free you say, I cant help but laugh, I'm singled out because I'm colored, killed because I'm colored, bullied because I'm colored, turned down because I'm colored, I'm the lowest of the crops because I'm colored, Land of free you say, I spit on your Uncle Sam's face, he had captured my ancestors chained them, destroyed their values, destroyed their name, destroyed their history, their religion, ripped them bare of everything they had raped our women belittled our men  and you want me to pledge to your flag with my right hand over my heart like you are god ? how dare you ! how dare you ask such a thing from me , look what you have done to us , look at what you have done !
Sound fucked up right but hunny you don't even Know the half of it.The Black Woman is the most disrespected,neglected,being on the planet, If you didn't know well now you know. I'm so broken right now I am so amazed that I am still fully functioning, I literally have no energy or love inside of me for anyone to take. What the hell Ida! Look at what you are doing to yourself. You have hit rock bottom, I need to get the hell away from this place ! Slowly walking into my bedroom pulling my suit case from under my bed. I grabbed everything like a gun was pointed to my chest clothes,shoes,personal belongings,toiletries. Ran into my closet and entered the code to my vault taking all my saved cash,passport ,social security,and wallet stuffed it into my duffle bag I walked back to the room grabbing my keys, my two bags, myself and proceeded to walk away from my life leaving my heart behind.