That feeling of wanting to be in love, but being afraid to love. The feeling of wanting someone you can lean on, but being afraid of letting someone see the shadows within you.
My heart yearns for someone to love, for someone who I can call mine, yet my mind can't shake off the thought of a loved one knowing the darkness I hold. Leaving me as they can't handle such thoughts.
I want to hold hands with someone, to have special memories with them. Yet I used the excuse of not being ready when I was actually just too scared of being hurt.
This is why I stick to a one-sided secret love. Even though it hurts, it'll hurt less than a loved one leaving me.
A fire that slowly dies out, a passionate spark between two people that fades. I don't want to be the person who is left with the memory of a flame that used to burn oh so brightly.
