...the salt in the air
stung my nose
clogged my throat
the crash of the waves
startled me
you grabbed my hand
our fingers threaded together
tight
we walked along the shore
with you closest to the water
i was content with the cool sand underneath my feet
you were talking
i was feeling
the sun on my cheeks
my neck
shoulder and arms
down to my thighs and legs
i reveled in it
there was something about seeing
dark skin glisten in the sun
shining as bright as i wanted to feel
you glanced at me
told me
that there was no shade more beautiful
i couldn't control my smile
you were talking
i was feeling
a breeze on the back of my neck
through the tight coils in my hair
you were talking
i was feeling
i was hearing
seagulls in the distance
the crashing of the waves
a couple kids screaming
you were talking
i was feeling
i was hearing
i was watching
the way the waves receded
the tiny sandcastles
the way my footprints were left in the sand before being washed away
you were talking
i was feeling
i was hearing
i was watching
everything but you
we stopped walking
and i grabbed the nearest stick
made you sit
as i wrote out your name
the scrape of the sand
made the hairs on the back of my neck stand
i didn't let that stop me
i continued your name
pretending every scrape of that stick
was a touch from you
it made the feeling that much better
when i finished your name
i looked up at you
saw you standing in front of me
your eyes locked onto mine
you took my breath away
one gasp
became that intake of breath i needed
to survive the length of your kiss
your arms
were wrapped around me
holding me steady as we walked back toward the water
the water splashed onto the back of my feet
ice shot through my veins
your lips warmed me
we kept going backward
and i watched our death play out before my closed eyes
my lips would be swollen
we would fall backward
i'd land in the water first
your hands would grab
and pull
and yank
and touch
nothing
the screaming kids
the seagulls
the crashing waves
would all be muffled
my eyes would open
and burn
my mouth would open in shock
i would swallow the ocean
faintly hear the screams of my names
feel the featherlike touches of you trying to save me
i would panic
my eyes would open
they would grow wide
my arms would flail
my legs wouldn't work
i'd close my mouth
slip my eyes closed
feel the rays of the sun beaming into the water
wanting to love my skin
i just wanted to remember
your smile
your laugh
the way your hand felt in mine
i just wanted to remember
the feel of our fingers
threaded so tightly
that nothing could tear them apart
i just wanted to remember
how your arms felt
wrapped around my waist
the way they touched me
as if i was the most fragile thing
i just didn't want to remember
your screams
and your tears
and the way your hands clawed at me
to save me
i just wanted to remember
what i thought happiness was...
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the ending
RomanceHave you found happiness? Do you understand it? This epic follows a couple throughout their last day, and one of them tries to answer these questions even when uncertainty looms ahead.