Hard Habit to Break #Wattys2017

HHB (41)

*flashback*

"Mom, si Glaiza? Dumating na ba sya?" Tanong ko kay Mommy habang binibihisan niya ako

Ngayon nakatakda ang operasyon para tanggalin ang bukol sa baga ko.

Gaya nang sinabi ko kay Glaiza na ipagpatuloy nya ang career nya, nanatili ito sa America habang ako naman ay nasa London.

Nagkikita lang kami sa Skype or FaceTime at once every 2months ko lang sya pinapadalaw dito sa akin.

She need to go on with her life. Ayokong maging stagnant na lang sya sa tabi ko... She has her own life to live and I will be happy kung mas pagtutuunan nya nang pansin iyon.
And besides, I don't want to see her suffer from all of these. Mas nakakahina sa loob ko.

"Kakatawag lang sabi nang Dad mo. Nasa Heatrow Airport na daw at didiretcho sya dito." Saad ng ina ko

Ngumiti lang ako sa kanya.

I don't usually speak dahil kahit boses ko ay nawawala na... Pero kapag kausap ko si Glaiza, ni hindi ko man lang alintana ang sakit at panunuyo nang lalamunan ko.

Napatingin ako sa orasan,. 4 na oras pa bago ako ipapasok sa operating room.

Who knows what will happen next...

But deep inside my heart, tanggap ko na lahat. Naihanda ko na ang sarili ko sa mga posibilidad.

Pagkalipas nang 30 minuto ay dumating na nga ang pinakahihintay ko.

"L-Lablab." Namamaos kong sambit

She rushed toward me and hug me.

"I missed you.!" Aniya

"I missed you too rockstar!" I said as I messed her hair

As she faced me, I saw her eyes turned red and teary but her lips are still stretch and trying to convince me that she's fine.

"No need for this Lablab... It'll be alright..." Then I wipe her tears

"You know that I will do everything to get through this... Right?"

She nodded.

"But if I can't, I want you to know that I love you more than the love that you need... I know I caused you a lot of pain but I never wished to hurt you. Im sorry for the hard times, Lab. It's just that, I want you to learn how to love yourself first before me because the next person to own you is me. Whatever you do to yourself is a preparation of what you have to offer to me... Dahil mas maniniwala akong mahal mo talaga ako kung alam kong minamahal mo nang tama ang sarili mo."

She keeps on nodding and sobbing.

"Salamat sa pag intindi kahit alam kong nahihirapan kang intindihin ako. You're one of the best thing happened in my life and I am grateful na nagkaroon ako nang isang ikaw sa buhay ko... Sana kung sa ibang pagkakataon, hindi ako magdadalawang isip na hayaan kang mahalin ako without any conditions and limits... Kung may sapat na oras lang ako, we will make the best out of our own love story and maybe this will be my most favorite."