the feeling of vulnerability is not always a good thing; when is it ever, really?
when she is vulnerable, she misses him.
she misses talking to him.
it has not been long, but the feeling is there.
she feels as though they have not spoken in forever.
she feels like all she needs is to hear him speak or even see what he types.
whether in person or behind a screen, she wants to speak to him.
she has tried.
though he has not realized.
she thinks to herself, it is okay, he is just busy.
but there is a part of her that thinks, he doesn't care, he is too busy.
feeling this way is difficult for her.
she puts so much of herself into whatever it is they have.
she does not like that the feeling takes over and controls itself.
she wants to not feel, but she cannot.
she cannot use the courage she has to say "i miss you".
for she cannot let her vulnerability take control of something so new.
