behind his eyes // joshler

six

*teusday night*

tyler

i turn to check my bedside clock.

3:47 a.m.

another sleepless night.

joseph.

what?

you're useless...

as you've told me before.

i'm right though. i just need to make you see that.

leave.

no.

you must obey me, you live in my head.

i am you.

that doesn't make sense...

yes it does, if you really think about it.

just leave me alone. i'm trying to sleep.

fine. but i'll be back.

-

me and josh spend a lot of time together.

during that time, he seems happy.

but if i get to look into his eyes, i see worry.

that makes me worried.

am i doing something wrong?

the slam of a locker next to me abruptly stops my thought and i turn to see who did it.

ugh, it's billy.

(**bullying and homophobic content, i'll tell you when it's dun**)

"hey fag," he sneers.

"billy, please leave me alone," i sigh.

me and josh walked to school together now, but he's gone to the toilet and i'm left with billy.

"don't you talk to me that way, freak," he says, slamming me into the lockers.

i wince. my body is tired because of lack of sleep and he's just making it worse.

he knees me in the stomach and i drop to the floor.

oh no. what if josh sees?

he'll know how pathetic you really are.

billy pushes me to the ground.

"you're a insignificant piece of shit! no one likes you!" he says kicking me.

(**it's dun**)

but then in the corner of my eye, i see josh.

oh no.

josh runs towards billy and shoves him away from me.

everybody stops and stares.

"aw that's cute, your boyfriend has come to stand up for you," billy laughs.

josh grabs his shirt and pushes him against a locker.

"listen here you fucking asshole!" he says, his face inches away from billy's.

"y-yeah i-i'm l-listening," billy whimpers.

"don't you ever touch tyler again!" josh snaps.

billy whimpers.

"you hear me?!" josh shouts.

"y-yes."

josh looks at me, his mocha eyes sad.

he turns back to billy.

"it was you! you beat up tyler on my first day here," he sneers at billy.

"n-no i swear! it wasn't me!" billy cries.

"don't lie!" josh screams, pulling billy toward him then slamming him back against the locker.

"s-sorry," he yelps.

"now, you're gonna leave tyler and everyone else you've bullied alone," josh says.

"or what?"

"you'll have to deal with me!" he shouts.

he pushes billy off the locker and he runs away.

he turns to me and lifts me to my feet.

"thanks," i smile at josh.

"no problem," he replies.

he suddenly notices everyone was staring at him and his face goes red.

"woah..." someone says.

"dude, that was awesome!" another person shouts.

"th-thanks," josh stutters, eyes on the ground.

"he was like, so scared of you!" someone else shouts.

suddenly, voices come all at once and shout nice things at josh, but his expression stays angry.

"josh, are you okay?" i ask him.

"no. c'mon, let's go to class," he sighs, "i'll tell you about it later."

-

"so what's up?" i ask him when we get to the usual lunch spot.

"well, all the people who watch you get beat up everyday never did anything about it," josh sighs.

"it never bothered me," i shrug.

"well, it bothers me," josh sighs.

he takes my hand and looks into my eyes.

his eyes are worried.

"i really care about you, ty."

a/n: hey, i hope you're all enjoying the story! my writing is so crap and i'm sorry if something's don't make sense because when I write i usually don't think about how everything is going to make sense. thanks for reading!!! 🖤