Angel of Music

Why?

Why do they do this?

I was so happy

I was actually on a high

Now I'm back where I belong

I'm back in the low

I deserve to be in

Nothing will save me now

I should just kill myself

The pain would hopefully be quick

I don't want to suffer

Just living is suffering enough

I hate this

The blood ruins my dress

He says my words are no good

That I don't understand

But I know he's wrong

The pain of the knife is sweet

As I slit the flesh

My skin now slippery

This how I deal with it

Why god why?

Why did you make me like this?

I have no future

No past or present

I'm a ghost

Lost in the thousands of other souls

The tears fall and I lose it

I've had enough

As I plan the death

They whisper and say sweet nothings

But only I know when their time will come

I'm this close to it

I can taste it

The sweet fluid that comes out

Their dead body on the floor beneath me

I smile in victory

But there is a small problem...

I can still hear their heart beating

This doesn't make sense

This is like my favorite poem

I thought it would never happen to me

I thought I could get away with it

But I couldn't

I'm not strong enough

I hear footsteps everyday

Getting closer and closer

They are at my door

Asking to come in

I will never let them in

Forever never

Please believe me

Please, I don't wanna die anymore

I let them in

I never knew why I didn't before

I love them

They are beings that killed me

Why?

Why did they do this?

Because I told them to

That's why.