a/n: part of this chapter is italicized for emphasis. lower case intended. oh, and in this au, farkle and smakle never date/dated, they were/are only best friends.
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having feelings for your best friend is heartbreaking.
every time you look at them, you hurt.
you want them to look at you the same way you look at them.
it's a terrible feeling. a sinking feeling when you have to lie about your feelings.
"i'm fine."
"of course i don't like riley!"
"i am not jealous!"
you think you can get through it.
you think it's just your brain making up feelings when you're lonely.
but every single time you're around them, you're heart races.
you make up excuses like "my hands are cold" to hold their hand.
even if your hands are actually cold, you know you just want them to hold your hand.
when you hug them, you want them to hold onto you forever.
it's hard keeping such a big secret.
it' s not because you don't trust anyone.
it's because you're too afraid to admit it.
there's a part of you that hopes they never find out.
but there's also a part of you that wants them to find out.
you don't want them to reject you.
but maybe they're scared of the same thing.
so you take a chance.
but make sure: it's at the right moment.
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"hey, riley?", i asked in a questioning tone. we were studying in topanga's together, getting ready for her dad's history quiz.
"yeah, farkle?", she ginned up at me.
this was it. this is the moment.
"what would you do if one of your best friends told you they like you as more than a friend?", i partially mumbled.
"why? did one of your friends tell you they like as more than a friend?", she asked, furrowing her eyebrows. she always does that when she's confused. it's so adorable.
"not exactly.", i sheepishly said. regret came over me as soon as the words left my mouth.
no turning back now.
"then, what do you mean?"
"i think i might like you as more than a friend.", i nervously looked down at my hands.
"oh. oh! you like me?" riley tried hiding an obvious smile.
"i said it, didn't i?", i chuckled.
"yyyyyyaaaAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY", she stood up quickly, almost falling in the process.
she attacked me with a overpowering hug.
we stayed there for a while.
just hugging.
it was almost as perfect as she was.
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a/n: OH MY GOD I'M LISTENING TO TOPxMM RIGHT NOW AND I'VE CRIED A LOT WHILE LISTENING TO IT!!!
anyways, i want you all to know that there are all of these one shots are parts of my heart, so i hope you love them.
i'll be writing a lot more one shot's because i need to express my feelings that i bottle up :)
also merry almost christmas (or what you celebrate/ don't celebrate)!
