Thirteen (Markjin)

chapter five

" Jinyoung, what about your classes, you can't miss classes all the time" Jackson asked me when mark hyung was not around.

"I can't go to class like this hyung, I'll have to miss class till I turn back to myself, even though I don't wanted to" I said feeling sad.

"It's ok jinyoung, don't think too much I'll help you with notes." Jackson hyung said patting my shoulder slightly. I just gave him a half smile.

"Jinia....jinia....." Mark hyung called for me from upstairs.

"What is it oppa?" I asked from downstairs.

"Oh there you are" he said when he saw me. And came downstairs and set beside me.

"I just wanted to asked you that, we have football match tomorrow, will you come to see us?" He asked happily.

I really wanna go, because I really love to see mark hyung playing football, but I can't go like this.
"But oppa....I...." I started, but mark hyung cut me off.
"Actually you know what? I'm not asking anymore, you must go, I'm ordering you" he said back.

"I really wanna go too, but...."
"No buts" he cut me off and smile at me lovingly. How can I deny that face anymore.
" Ok, I'll have to go now, bye." with that he left.

"Jackson hyung, should I go, I mean how can I go there like this" I asked to Jackson hyung.

"Why can't you go like this? It's not like they'll know you, we'll just tell them what we told to mark. It's OK you can go, and besides I know how much you love to see mark hyung playing football." He said.

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It was already dinner time when mark hyung returned. But he's not alone. Jessica was with him.

Here goes my good mood.

"I invited her for dinner." Mark told us.

"Oh.. hi Jessica" Jackson said.
"Hi...Jackson" she said smiling.

"And yeah, she's our little angel, jinia, jinyoung's younger sister." Mark introduced me to her.

"Hi jinia, nice to meet you, your really cute" she said smiling while shaking my hand.
I smiled back at her bitterly.

Whole time they were laughing and talking with each other, it's like Jackson hyung and me are not even there. It's getting into my nerves, am I jealous? No! I'm not, I'm just bothered that mark hyung is not even paying attention to me anymore. But then I saw mark hyung looking at her lovingly, but I'm not jealous. Not at all.

Damn! Who am I lying to I'm jealous, totally jealous. I can't deny it anymore.

Finally dinner is done. Mark hyung walked Jessica outside to her car. I can't help it so, i kinda peeked outside to see if they are doing something. And gosh it was a bad idea.
I saw Jessica kissing mark hyung on cheek. It's just a simple kiss on cheek but it still is a kiss.

I can't stand here anymore. I can't help it but I'm hurt. There is so much possibilities of them dating. I just run upstairs to my room without looking at anyone.
I heard Jackson hyung calling my name.
I just told him 'i'm really tired and I'm going to sleep' without even glancing back for once.

That night, I cried. I cried for the first time because of mark hyung. I cried, because I realized, I'm in love with him. I cried because he's already seeing someone else. I cried because I can't do anything, I'm just a helpless little girl at the moment.