Y'all think I'm funny, nice and totally not depressed.
The lies.
The way people act on the outside never shows who they really are. Look at me, the cheerful kid.
Writing a story about her depression.
Listen, I am nice, I guess.
But I hear you talking about me in the halls, when I walk in late and you don't realize I can hear you. The talking always gets louder when I pass though. You don't notice I know.
I hear you whispering about how my friends only like me because I, 'can help them speak in Spanish class.' Tell that to the Spanish teacher, well see some real action there. You don't notice I know.
I can hear you when you say hi and throw on a fake smile. You quickly turn away to hide your face of disgust, like you were staring at an ant you've just killed. You don't notice I know.
But guess what,
I know you can hear me when I cry in the bathroom.
I know you can hear me when I actually have real conversations with my friends.
I know you can hear me when I say hi, but you dont look back at all, not even caring.
I have barely any real friends, some of them are, like Becca and Mel, the ones from the internet who act like sisters to me.
Can't forget Mila and Ami, even though I've had multiple fights with Mila and gotten into so much trouble with Ami, we're still best friends.
That's what real friends are for.
Not like you fake ones that all the teachers like.
I hurt myself because of your stupid whispering.
But you don't realize something.
I'm human, your human, we're all human. If one of us becomes disrespectful to somebody, we betray ourselves.
Homophobic people are evil in my mind, they dont see that it doesn't matter who you like.
People who hate transgender? Go to Hell.
I don't care who you are, I don't care about you, I don't care.
That affects people, too.
So take a minute to read this.
And answer in the comments.
Do you ever wanna get hurt?
Do you ever want to die?
Do you know what it feels like to be tossed around like a piece of paper?
Like a piece of trash?
Do you!?!?
See.
Now look at the other comments.
Half of them lying about it, while others are in actual pain.
It hurts to see that, to see so many people being hurt, and other people lying to get attention. The others not actually caring enough to look through the comments.
So, do me a favor.
Think about how you act.
Do you listen to other people who are wrong?
Do you listen to the people that are right?
Do you listen to people who have to hide each day to not get beaten up?
If you've done any of those, thank you.
If you haven't, try to.
By try to, I mean, get to know a person you may have been neglecting for so long. Or treat somebody with respect.
Just Think.
