SEVENTEEN

White Promises

almost everything here are painted white - white walls, white beds, white uniforms.
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the only thing that brightens up this building is colors of apparels of the visitors who came to bring happiness - or false hope.
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" i don't want to hear it anymore. "
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" but Ms (Y/N), you have- "
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" i said i dont want to hear it. "
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closing the sliding door behind me, my eyes landed on the view of his back facing towards the windows.
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" it's so pretty.. "
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he was right, as soon as i get closer to the windows, i was welcomed with the dark blue sky that was filled with beautiful sparkly stars - which was something you don't see often in a city area.
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" but my little kitty is prettier ~ "
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" gosh enough.. "
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smiling at my 'super-done' facial expression, he hovered a little to the left side of the bed and tap lightly on to the space he had created for me.
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" let's sleep, kitty. "
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as soon as i laid down beside him, he wrapped his once muscular arms around my waist and pulled me closer into his warm embrace.
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looking up at him, his right cheeks were squished by the pillow that we were sharing - which made me giggle.
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" babe.. i've been thinking about us. from the first moment we met.. where you were protecting me and kicking the ass of my bullies in middle school, to the moment where you couldn't stop screaming when i wanted to bring you to homecoming.. and to our moments now in this not-so-suffocating room.
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you were crazily attractive, but i was the only guy who was madly in love you - which was a good thing, because i can have you all to myself..
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when you're with me, i would laugh to myself about all the ridiculously funny things that i had made to make you mine; when i can actually just confess to you, since you had the same exactly feelings to me.
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and when you smile! gosh, my heart melted for the billionth time and i can't never feel not okay when i see it - and i keep hoping that i would see it again the next day.. "
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as he snuggled his face into my collarbones and breathed in deeply, soon i could feel something wet on my shoulder area.
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" why are you crying? of course, you'll see my smile again tomorr- "

" i'm so selfish, (Y/N). i should have let you be with Junhui back then, you wouldn't have been suffering now if i wasn't fucking selfish. "
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" l-look at me! i said look at me god damn it! "
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raising his head slowly, my eyes were met with his; pain and sadness was pouring out of his beautiful dark brown orbs.
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" you promised me didn't you? you promised me that you'll love me forever, that you'll become stronger than usual, that you will come back home and play with our child who misses you everyday. "
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sniffling through my words, i feel his hands travel from my waist and onto my cheeks, wiping away all the tears that i have been holding up eversince i got a call from the hospital.
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" i never break promises, i do and will always love you. "
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slowly closing my eyes, he leaned in closer and placed his chapped yet plump lips onto mine, and i felt sorrow - instead of happiness.
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breaking the silence in the room was the defeaning beeps of the ECG that was directly behind me, which caused me to open my eyes immediately, and handful of hospital staffs soon arrived and burst into the private ward.
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little did i know, that was
my last moment with him.
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" choi seungcheol, wake up! "