The Heart Never Lies

The Unexpected

JADE

5 o'clock PM

Here I am sitting in one of the wood bench in our backyard here in Spain. I arrived early in the morning with my daughter and mum. I'm supposed to be here yesterday but something came up with work and I need to fix it even though and I don't have any choice.

But honestly, I wish I can turn back the hands of time so I have the last chance to see my wife. The moment I saw her smiling in my mind, my tears began to fall. Perrie dies in a car accident and I just found it today.

It hurts and right now, I don't have any strength to tell it to Penny. How am I supposed to say to our 6 years old daughter that she won't see her mother again? She won't understand. She's still a baby.

I've been crying all day while Penny is with my mum and brother. They decided to bring her at the mall for a while. I'm with my two bestfriend, Jesy and Leigh-anne. I'm thankful that they are here because I'm really lost right now and I don't know what to do.

"Hey" I heard Leigh-anne's soft voice; I look at her and saw the two girls looking at me and holding some cups of tea "Can we join you?" Jesy asked me, I let out a force smile and tap the space on the bench.

"Here, drink this." Leigh-anne said to me and hand me my cup "Thanks" I answered. It took a minute or two before someone speaks.

"I know it's hard Jade and it really hurts to lose someone you love but you need to be strong for Penny" Jesy said "How can I do that, Jes?" I wait for her answer but it seems like she's lost for words.

"I don't know how I will live my life right now without her. She's been my rock and I'll admit that we're fixing some issues on our relationship but I don't want to lose her like this. Not now, not ever." I wipe the tears that falls freely on my cheeks.

"Sorry if we kept it to you. We don't want you to be in a devastated stage while travelling all the way here." Perrie's body was cremated last night. There's a policy in Spain that the body must be buried or cremated within 24-48 hours after death.

It hurts but I understand my brother's situation.

I look at the house. It's a gift from Perrie's parents on our wedding day. They surprise us with a honeymoon and a key to this house. My wife loves it so much. Every year, we take a vacation here with Penny or sometimes with Jesy and Leigh-anne.

I don't know if I could ever go back at this house again. Everywhere I look, I can see Perrie. I look at the cup of tea I'm holding. Reminiscing the last time I talk to her on the phone.

"You know what. She told me that she wants to have another baby with me" I said without looking at my friends "She even told me that she'll stop working for a while so she can prepare for her pregnancy. Penny will be happy to know that soon she'll be having a baby brother or a baby sister"

I just let the tears falls freely on my face "She also said that we'll do our best to fix our marriage and it's our having another baby is our first step but you know what really makes me happy that day?"

I smile and look at Leigh-anne and Jesy "The moment she said she loves me." I cry hard and let the emotions overcome me. Jesy and Leigh-anne know what's going on between me and Perrie. The four of us are close but Jesy is a lot closer to Perrie and I'm with Leigh-anne.

Sometimes when we fight, these two will fight too. They won't stop defending me or Perrie.

"It's the first time I heard her say it again after a few years but now she's gone for good. I won't be able to show her how much I love her" I said. I know they can't find right words to say to me and I understand.