My question is this. Why do some of us continuously make the choice go back to the people who hurt us and have the capacity to make us absolutely miserable? It's like we are drawn to them by an invisible force that keeps us there and makes it utterly impossible to escape. If we do escape we are quickly drawn into another equally draining and stressful situation.
The fact which further confuses me is the human body has a natural, subconscious reflex to make us quickly pull away from physical pain and danger. But, consciously, our minds seem to have no such reflex and we choose to stay in situations that cause us immense emotional pain and despair.
Maybe we have the idea that the good times in the relationship with this person will eventually outweigh the torturous ones in the long term.
Possibly we just love the other person so much that we are willing to sacrifice our own happiness and we are just too stubborn inside to give up.
We could be using this as our own version of self punishment for wrongdoings in our past, and we actually believe we deserve to be miserable somehow.
Conceivably its just some form of Masochism. In some sick way we like doing these repetitive actions to make ourselves feel horrible inside.
I just don't know, and it seems like the more you and others involve yourselves in situations like this, it ends up like a whirlpool effect, a giant vortex that keeps dragging you down with minimal opportunity to escape, simply because you are too stubborn to give up. Even though there could be a thousand outsiders throwing you a rope, it never seems to be the right one, so you choose to ignore it and keep battling the storm...
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Non-FictionNon fictional blog type post . The first 2 entries were older pieces of writing that I did in 2009 -11 I'm going to add more as frequently as I can. Feel free to comment and add thoughts and feelings!
