My ears are ringing.
My eyes are blurring.
My mind keeps chanting the same two words over and over again.
"Calm Down"
My breathing quickens.
My hands are trembling.
I am staring at two ants on the floor.
Everyone is talking.
I can hear a girl telling her friend how fat she is. She is perfectly fine, I think.
I can hear people laughing, yet i'm not really there with them.
Nobody seems to notice, but i'm not feeling well.
"Calm down"
"Calm down"
"Calm down"
I can't. I want to cry, there's a knot in my throat.
I stand up and walk to the bathroom, everything seems out of focus.
I touch the sink, and open the faucet. Cold water touches my fingers.
My breathing hasn't calmed down.
I want to cry.
I want to scream.
I want to run.
I want the girl beside me to shut the fuck up.
"Calm down"
"Calm down"
I start grounding.
5 things I can touch. The sink, the water, the floor, the faucet and the mirror.
4 things I can look. The soap, my reflection, the floor, and white tiles everywhere.
3 things I can smell. The soap, the lysol, and the girl-beside-me's lotion.
2 things I can hear. The sound of someone peeing, and the sound of open faucets.
1 thing I can taste. The blood from bitting my lips.
My ears stopped ringing and my breath came back to normal. I splash my face and walk away acting as if I hadn't just felt like shit 1 minute ago.
