My Random And Bored Mind

A small something to school

You do not have to read this, the purpose of this is to just get this off of my chest.

Why do you have to pile up all of this on us? I mean right now I am getting very stressed out and I'm surprised no one has seen the bags under my eyes. There's this one class, ELA, that I am close to failing and no matter what, my grade stays in the 70's. School piles up so much homework that I just plain out don't want to do it. They already have me stressed out about what I wear, and now my grades? I get too anxious in the hallways and feel like I'm going to pass out or I just want to curl up in a ball and, not die, but cry and sleep, and then they want to give me more work. "With your group"... I dread those words because I either do all the work or I am given less work and have to get all anxious, afraid that one of them would tell the teacher I did nothing. And guess what? That isn't enough. School just wants me to suffer at home too by piling homework on us. Last year I had close to all A's, I only had one B that was soooo close to an A, and now I have high expectations for myself and I am practically failing a class right now and let me tell you, I have not been easy on myself. And I have fallen into a hole of depression, please do not tell me that I am faking this because I really have no clue what it is and I look to get diagnosed. Just a few days ago I was listening to music and started crying for some unknown reason, I'm not as happy as I used to be since then. So yeah, school is stressing me so much to this point.

I am sorry for ranting about my life, I am crying right now because of how good saying this. I just think I have fallen into a place a lot of other people have also fallen, stress, depression, anxiety, what ever this is! Sure I have my happy moments but it feels like most of my time is stress. I really am sorry for ranting about my life. Oh and the little note at the top saying you don't really have to read this, if you did thank you.