My Random And Bored Mind

I'M SO STUPID!!

If you don't like people ranting about their lives, don't read this!!

So, I just received a text from my friend and I didn't understand what she was aging so I just said 'Lol because u thought she was playing around. But no, I offended her and I don't know why but I litterally ran around the house despite it being midnight whisper yelling 'I'm so stupid' slapping my forehead in tears. I may just be over reacting but I'm litterally trying to wake everyone up from my sobs, I can't live without her, she's the one that has helped me, she's the one I could truly trust, I can't do anything without her. I don't think she wants to be friends with me anymore. I can't stop reading the text, each time I feel shot in the gut, how could I be so stupid and not get what she was saying, I am so stupid. I don't want to reply because of fear and I have to tell someone right now or I might end up crying myself to sleep.

Sorry for ranting about this I'm just really upset and my heart can't stop pounding, I am so afraid, my heads spinning, and I really don't want to lose another friend