I'm saying Idea, but I don't mean that someone came to me and said "here, you should try this". I mean that it wouldn't of even crossed my mind if I hadn't known someone who did it.
When I thought of killing myself it kinda came out of nowhere- I didn't know anyone who, or at least I didn't think I knew anyone who had tried to or thought about killing themselves (I later found out that my mum tried to, 3 times). However, when I first self harmed I got the idea from someone who I knew who had cut her wrists with a broken piece of glass- I thought that it must help, which I guess it does... Momentarily. Whilst I do it I'm not thinking about whatever it is that's bothered me. And then after, once most of the pain has gone away and I've calmed down a bit I start to feel worse. I know it's wrong and everything bad I was thinking gets stronger and I start to think about how best to kill myself- even though I know I'll never do it because I'm too much of a coward.
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MY SELF HARM STORY/DIARY
RandomFrom how it started to where I am now. I will message anyone back with answers to any question they have about anything- I'm more than happy to; especially if it stops someone or just makes someone think twice about doing it.
