Angel

IX - FINAL

Kyungsoo barely remembers how he ended up like this. He can recall seeing you at that party, how beautifully you looked and how Kim Jongin had his hands on you and claimed you were his girlfriend. The jealousy he felt when he heard that was still present, and he left himself an obvious reminder when he broke his champagne glass in front of everyone.

The lady that took care of his wound kept nagging about how careless he was and that these glasses cost a fortune, all while his own girlfriend was crying about the injury. But all Kyungsoo could think about was how he made a fool of himself in front of you.

The last thing he remembers is demanding an expensive bottle from Sehun and yelling at Yixing's driver to drive faster.

And now he is in front of your door, bottle half empty and the driver was long gone.

He felt so pathetic, not only from the inside now but also in appearance.

"Kyungsoo?" It took you about three times for him to finally look up at you. "What are you doing here?"

Instead of replying he just balls up and starts groaning, that's when you see his flushed face and the bottle. You sigh and try to get him inside.

You dump him on the couch and walk to the kitchen to get him some water and an Advil. Without even complaining or fighting against you, he takes the Advil and gulps it down but quickly crashes his head back on the couch.

His eyes are closed and you dare to take a look at him. He is honestly still so much like a child, he has to have everything he wants and basically throws tantrums when he doesn't get it. "Are you really dating Jongin?" He asks, almost in a broken voice.

"Let's talk tomorrow, Kyungsoo."

"No." He might have a weak voice but the grip on your arm is anything but weak. "I need an answer now, or I will feel like I might die."

You pry his arm off and sigh. "I honestly don't see why my love life concerns you."

"Are you dating Jongin?" He asks again. There is this desperation is his eyes that are just so hard to look at. You know he is trying, you really do but after all, that happened you don't want to fall back into that kind of a life and feeling.

"Are you dating Miyoung?" You ask him.

He doesn't say anything but he knits his eyebrows, that question hurts. "Yes, I am." He admits honestly.

"Then why does my love life concern you?" There are so many unspoken and unexplainable emotions you both have between each other. It's a feeling of being unable to express, and feeling unclear. External factors make it even more difficult to reach each other. A lot of pride.. that both of you stubbornly don't want to put aside. And uncertainty.. that gives you the disability to be unable speak. "You are dating Miyoung, isn't that your biggest wish? Hasn't it been granted? Are you not satisfied?"

His hand flies to his hair and he pushes his hair up and out of his face, slightly covering his eyes. "Sometimes it takes something or someone to leave for one to realize they lost what they love." His breath is shaky and you are sure he is in tears. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for everything." He repeats.

You are speechless, absolutely dumbstruck by his words. Nothing has ever left you so blown away, never would you have ever dreamed of him saying anything like that to you.

Not only does it create sympathy, it also created anger.

Why did you treat me the way you did?

Do you know how much pain I went through?